Thoughts
This song - "Don't Panic" - it always gives me this most peculiar feeling.
It's like... incredible sadness... despair... but it cannot be that because if it was, why would I play that song so often and make me feel like that voluntarily? Melancholy is maybe a better word... together with the wish to do something, to embrace life - yet there's definitely sadness and despair involved... it's one of thos songs which express a certain atmosphere or idea about life which in reality can only very hardly be achieved - it's just that song that's able to convey or inspire those feelings.
And all of a sudden (I'm just about to dive into the homepages of Oxford nd Cambridge again cos I need that to be done before the last week of september) it makes me unsure of my choice of English literature - which is what I wanted to apply for in England... I thought psychology/neuroscience might be tough (as would English literature in the country of its origin be) but interestig and in the end I will earn more money with that. So it's this old struggle within myself again. It's alright for me for my Germany-study-plans to be unsure cos it's rather inexpensive to study here so I could change subject any other time but in England... they want me to be 100% passionate and sure about the subject of my choice... besides, I do not have enough money (hahaha... I do really not have enough money... but I really mean my parents... well, they probably have money, but it'd be mre than unfair to let them pay more than is necessary) to study longer than the required three years in England. So... what the hell? I need to decide within, like, a week!
But then again, I read in this article about neurosciences that your insticts eally know what's best for you. So for once in my life, I maybe should choose heart (English language and literature) over head (psychology/neurosciences)... how ironic: The psychology article leads me to English?
Don't panic.
We live in a beautiful world.
It's like... incredible sadness... despair... but it cannot be that because if it was, why would I play that song so often and make me feel like that voluntarily? Melancholy is maybe a better word... together with the wish to do something, to embrace life - yet there's definitely sadness and despair involved... it's one of thos songs which express a certain atmosphere or idea about life which in reality can only very hardly be achieved - it's just that song that's able to convey or inspire those feelings.
And all of a sudden (I'm just about to dive into the homepages of Oxford nd Cambridge again cos I need that to be done before the last week of september) it makes me unsure of my choice of English literature - which is what I wanted to apply for in England... I thought psychology/neuroscience might be tough (as would English literature in the country of its origin be) but interestig and in the end I will earn more money with that. So it's this old struggle within myself again. It's alright for me for my Germany-study-plans to be unsure cos it's rather inexpensive to study here so I could change subject any other time but in England... they want me to be 100% passionate and sure about the subject of my choice... besides, I do not have enough money (hahaha... I do really not have enough money... but I really mean my parents... well, they probably have money, but it'd be mre than unfair to let them pay more than is necessary) to study longer than the required three years in England. So... what the hell? I need to decide within, like, a week!
But then again, I read in this article about neurosciences that your insticts eally know what's best for you. So for once in my life, I maybe should choose heart (English language and literature) over head (psychology/neurosciences)... how ironic: The psychology article leads me to English?
Don't panic.
We live in a beautiful world.