Jimmy Eat World
I'm afraid that *Ricky* still has feelings for me. Today his away message was in Spanish, which, historically speaking, means that it was directed at me. There have been exceptions, but I fear that this was not one of them. The message read, "Echando de menos lo que mas quiero". He's been telling me he misses me a lot lately. Which is fine, I miss him too, but I miss him as a friend. I don't want to sound self-absorbed, I may be completely off. I hope I am. Not because I don't love him, but because I love him in a different way. I don't want to hurt him anymore.
I went to dinner with Dean today. Fun fun. We traded Jimmy Eat World CD's though, so I consider the night a success. I've been loving Jimmy Eat World lately. They have a lot of songs that just make me FEEL. It's hard to describe the feeling. What I was telling Dean was that it feels almost like it does when you like someone--that bittersweet feeling. The mix of giddy and also heartbreak at the thought that they won't like you back. That feeling just makes you feel alive. Jimmy Eat World reminds me of that feeling. Hope, anticipation, nostalgia...all wrapped up in one.
I went to dinner with Dean today. Fun fun. We traded Jimmy Eat World CD's though, so I consider the night a success. I've been loving Jimmy Eat World lately. They have a lot of songs that just make me FEEL. It's hard to describe the feeling. What I was telling Dean was that it feels almost like it does when you like someone--that bittersweet feeling. The mix of giddy and also heartbreak at the thought that they won't like you back. That feeling just makes you feel alive. Jimmy Eat World reminds me of that feeling. Hope, anticipation, nostalgia...all wrapped up in one.