some nights
i haven't posted in a while. my guy is in okinawa. most nights are bareable. tonight is not one of them. it is 2:30 am and i cannot go to sleep. i probably have no room to talk since my dude is not in a war zone, but it still sucks ass to be away from him for so long. as much as i want to go on to grad school after i graduate in december, i want to go with him to japan. but i know that i'd hate myself if i don't go to grad school. if i wait i know i won't go back, not as a violin performance major. so. here i am. 2:30 am, waiting to graduate so i can see him, then waiting for grad school to be over to be with him. tonight is just not a good night.
ever find yourself just mindlessly browsing the internet, searching on youtube for videos that you can share with your SO, like say "sleeping with the telephone" by faith hill and reba mcentire? i can't get myself away from this computer. i need to sleep. i have to teach in the morning. i have things to do, things to worry about. and here i am. the computer screen works like a hypnotic devise - i can't tear myself away from it. i don't want to crawl into an empty bed.
some ppl just don't get it. i miss him so much.
ever find yourself just mindlessly browsing the internet, searching on youtube for videos that you can share with your SO, like say "sleeping with the telephone" by faith hill and reba mcentire? i can't get myself away from this computer. i need to sleep. i have to teach in the morning. i have things to do, things to worry about. and here i am. the computer screen works like a hypnotic devise - i can't tear myself away from it. i don't want to crawl into an empty bed.
some ppl just don't get it. i miss him so much.