This is me... ♥
Hey, Im Melissa aka Milisa (_jc)
Im a Christian but it doesn't rule my life.
I live in Hamilton, New Zealand.
I don't really want to live here.
I want to move.
The only thing keeping me back is a very, very, very, very few amount of friends and my dad, bro and sis...
My parents have split (Not divorced - but might aswell have been) and I have to be upset about it because that's the way I deal with it.
I like to be fairly equal with my brother and sister when they get stuff like clothes.
I get hardly any...
Same with my brother...
My sister gets milyins.
Unfair to me and yes, I complain about it.
I have a few more winter clothes now.
Grateful.
I do take things seriously most of the time - something may not affect somone if it happened to them but it may to other people.
KFC is my favourite.
I eat heaps.
Im not anorexic.
Just because I'm thin doesn't mean I am.
Just because I'm from New Zealand doesn't mean I wont support the Itallian football/soccer team.
Just because I'm loud and excited most of the time doesn't mean that when I am sad I have to still run around and be crazy and b the little "cute" loud Melissa everyone normally see's.
I hate getting backstabbed, and yes, I have done it too... but if they don't know me at all or don't even hang out with me at all I then I think that THAT is gay and unfair.
I don't do it to them.
I swear sometimes when I get really annoyed and I'll just say it.
I do feel bad after but I don't appologise.
If you swear around me don't feel bad.
It's not me saying it/doing it.
That goes with other things aswell.
God is in the middle of most things I do.
Sometimes I'll quote a bible verse.
Doesn't mean I know where it is.
Some times I don't pray.
Doesn't mean I don't love God or don't think about Him.
Sometimes I don't read the bible.
Doesn't mean I don't know anything or have a close relationship with Him.
Why do it if you feel like it'll be a chore?
Why do it in routine.
I dont go to each of my friends in a certain order and talk to them for a certain time then move on and say the same thing to the next person... each day because I feel I have to.
I want to do that and pray and read the bible because I want to.
Sometimes I just don't want to.
Sometimes I just want to be fricken left alone.
If you talk about something spiritual/Godly and I don't really respond... stop - because I'm not in the mood.
Hillsong
"God is in the middle of everything.
He is for the 'for''s and for the 'against''s.
God doesn't not talk to the people against Him otherwise how do they get touched and saved?
God doesn't want us to just be spiritual all the time because how will we save the lost if we don't accept them for who they are.
Also some people just can't be reached in a "uniform way" meaning all just tell them they are "sinning and they are going to hell."
Some just need hope and/or something to fill them.
Not to change the way they were made.
You don't need to preach to the world.
Show them the change in your life and live your life the best way you can to make you feel as though it's not an act and let people see it that way."
Just because I've been to a conference it doesn't mean things wont or shouldn't get me down.
I'm not perfect.
I always stuff up in God's eyes everyday.
I know and admit it.
I gossip about people but I don't think it's fair if things like "hooking up with so-and-so at a party" and "how many people I hooked up with" and "what I drunk and how much" should be spread around the church.
My flippin school doesn't do that (apart from certain people there - christians) they just laugh and say man you're so funny because at good ol' melville parties I don't hook up with randoms, everyone's just friends and dances with a group and we do crazy stuff like have bouncy castles and strobe lights...
Fun.
My kind of fun.
Im new at this drinking thing so get over it.
I don't know my limit and I'm little so it happens quicker...
And I can't stop once I'm there.
So there.
And also to everyone who has gotten drunk before - you know you can't control some things.
So what if I hooked up with randoms.
Too late now.
But nooooo.
If I wasn't christian it'd be different.
But I am.
It's all like:
"OoOoOohhh"
"Um mum mum mum!!"
"Oi, I heard you got smashed on the weekend"
"Im dissapointed in you..."
It's gay.
Doesn't it say in the bible we all fall short of God's glory...
AND plus in Thessalonians it says "Drink and be merry"
So there you go.
Anyway, it's church for goodnes sake.
I can understand "oh, did you know so and so had a fight."
Or "This person pisses me off"
Or whatever.
Different.
But what you do out of church without church doesn't mean the whole church should know.
I don't go to a morman church so WHY should it be like that church - "suspended for getting drunk, smoking, having sex, getting married, having a child when you shouldn't" is what happens at Church collage.
I go to a Christian church, not a morman one.
So why should I get judged for it?
Yes I like someone.
Oh no!
"Why don't you guys just date, you look like you should"
"Hurry up man"
I'll do it when I'm ready thanks very much.
I am insecure I just get over it most days and just be like "stuff it".
I squeeze my pimples - I don't care.
I don't sleep much and I get crap period pains.
Change ~ I like it in some cases.
Christmas - Whole family at my house...
Last year split up kinda, awkward, not all together and enjoying it together, felt as though we were doing x-mas just because we had to and we had nothing else to do, at someone elses house (because mum wasn't here to organise it this year or for me to help her...) for the first time in like.. ever, in my whole life... (either it's been at my house or when we can't at nanna's (before our family's grew) ) and us eating different food to the usual x-mas menu...
Normal activities - I hate doing the same things every weekend and being able to predict what I do in a months time because it was that predictable that I could.
I hate going to b.K on greenwood.
Stupid central meeting place.
When I say I want something that's what I want - nothing more or less.
If I want more or less i'd ask for it.
I love my cat and I hate it when people say's shes anorxic because:
1. my cat eats
and
2. my cat has always been that way.
Just like me.
I love my school Melville
As "hory" as it may be but we are gettin 3 milyin for our burnt building... now look who's hory now.
Plus our school is tight.
Each year level is tight and we all comunnicate with each level.
We don't have much bullying and we have heaps of programmes stopping it and lateness too.
We also accept many people who wouldn't get into other schools - caring.
We also have the Campbell and Patricia centre's (Yes, I sometimes get the odd "Campbell centre" joke...) which is people mentally/physically challanged.
And a programme thing to go with that, "Best Buddies".
It's where we have one buddy if we want from the Patricia or Campbell centre and hang out with them and ocassionally in the weekends and holidays.
Our school was is getting better thanks to our principal who does have faith in us.
Our grades are better than Fairfield in most areas and some in other areas...
That's only in half a year.
Imagine our school in 3.
I love my school.
I will stick up for it no matter what happens.
I only say cute if I mean it.
Although I say it lots... It just means my "cute" tolerance is low.
Also.
I only say sorry if I mean it.
Otherwise why bother and let them think I was sorry when I wasn't...
I have alot to say I just sometimes don't get the chance to.
Im a Christian but it doesn't rule my life.
I live in Hamilton, New Zealand.
I don't really want to live here.
I want to move.
The only thing keeping me back is a very, very, very, very few amount of friends and my dad, bro and sis...
My parents have split (Not divorced - but might aswell have been) and I have to be upset about it because that's the way I deal with it.
I like to be fairly equal with my brother and sister when they get stuff like clothes.
I get hardly any...
Same with my brother...
My sister gets milyins.
Unfair to me and yes, I complain about it.
I have a few more winter clothes now.
Grateful.
I do take things seriously most of the time - something may not affect somone if it happened to them but it may to other people.
KFC is my favourite.
I eat heaps.
Im not anorexic.
Just because I'm thin doesn't mean I am.
Just because I'm from New Zealand doesn't mean I wont support the Itallian football/soccer team.
Just because I'm loud and excited most of the time doesn't mean that when I am sad I have to still run around and be crazy and b the little "cute" loud Melissa everyone normally see's.
I hate getting backstabbed, and yes, I have done it too... but if they don't know me at all or don't even hang out with me at all I then I think that THAT is gay and unfair.
I don't do it to them.
I swear sometimes when I get really annoyed and I'll just say it.
I do feel bad after but I don't appologise.
If you swear around me don't feel bad.
It's not me saying it/doing it.
That goes with other things aswell.
God is in the middle of most things I do.
Sometimes I'll quote a bible verse.
Doesn't mean I know where it is.
Some times I don't pray.
Doesn't mean I don't love God or don't think about Him.
Sometimes I don't read the bible.
Doesn't mean I don't know anything or have a close relationship with Him.
Why do it if you feel like it'll be a chore?
Why do it in routine.
I dont go to each of my friends in a certain order and talk to them for a certain time then move on and say the same thing to the next person... each day because I feel I have to.
I want to do that and pray and read the bible because I want to.
Sometimes I just don't want to.
Sometimes I just want to be fricken left alone.
If you talk about something spiritual/Godly and I don't really respond... stop - because I'm not in the mood.
Hillsong
"God is in the middle of everything.
He is for the 'for''s and for the 'against''s.
God doesn't not talk to the people against Him otherwise how do they get touched and saved?
God doesn't want us to just be spiritual all the time because how will we save the lost if we don't accept them for who they are.
Also some people just can't be reached in a "uniform way" meaning all just tell them they are "sinning and they are going to hell."
Some just need hope and/or something to fill them.
Not to change the way they were made.
You don't need to preach to the world.
Show them the change in your life and live your life the best way you can to make you feel as though it's not an act and let people see it that way."
Just because I've been to a conference it doesn't mean things wont or shouldn't get me down.
I'm not perfect.
I always stuff up in God's eyes everyday.
I know and admit it.
I gossip about people but I don't think it's fair if things like "hooking up with so-and-so at a party" and "how many people I hooked up with" and "what I drunk and how much" should be spread around the church.
My flippin school doesn't do that (apart from certain people there - christians) they just laugh and say man you're so funny because at good ol' melville parties I don't hook up with randoms, everyone's just friends and dances with a group and we do crazy stuff like have bouncy castles and strobe lights...
Fun.
My kind of fun.
Im new at this drinking thing so get over it.
I don't know my limit and I'm little so it happens quicker...
And I can't stop once I'm there.
So there.
And also to everyone who has gotten drunk before - you know you can't control some things.
So what if I hooked up with randoms.
Too late now.
But nooooo.
If I wasn't christian it'd be different.
But I am.
It's all like:
"OoOoOohhh"
"Um mum mum mum!!"
"Oi, I heard you got smashed on the weekend"
"Im dissapointed in you..."
It's gay.
Doesn't it say in the bible we all fall short of God's glory...
AND plus in Thessalonians it says "Drink and be merry"
So there you go.
Anyway, it's church for goodnes sake.
I can understand "oh, did you know so and so had a fight."
Or "This person pisses me off"
Or whatever.
Different.
But what you do out of church without church doesn't mean the whole church should know.
I don't go to a morman church so WHY should it be like that church - "suspended for getting drunk, smoking, having sex, getting married, having a child when you shouldn't" is what happens at Church collage.
I go to a Christian church, not a morman one.
So why should I get judged for it?
Yes I like someone.
Oh no!
"Why don't you guys just date, you look like you should"
"Hurry up man"
I'll do it when I'm ready thanks very much.
I am insecure I just get over it most days and just be like "stuff it".
I squeeze my pimples - I don't care.
I don't sleep much and I get crap period pains.
Change ~ I like it in some cases.
Christmas - Whole family at my house...
Last year split up kinda, awkward, not all together and enjoying it together, felt as though we were doing x-mas just because we had to and we had nothing else to do, at someone elses house (because mum wasn't here to organise it this year or for me to help her...) for the first time in like.. ever, in my whole life... (either it's been at my house or when we can't at nanna's (before our family's grew) ) and us eating different food to the usual x-mas menu...
Normal activities - I hate doing the same things every weekend and being able to predict what I do in a months time because it was that predictable that I could.
I hate going to b.K on greenwood.
Stupid central meeting place.
When I say I want something that's what I want - nothing more or less.
If I want more or less i'd ask for it.
I love my cat and I hate it when people say's shes anorxic because:
1. my cat eats
and
2. my cat has always been that way.
Just like me.
I love my school Melville
As "hory" as it may be but we are gettin 3 milyin for our burnt building... now look who's hory now.
Plus our school is tight.
Each year level is tight and we all comunnicate with each level.
We don't have much bullying and we have heaps of programmes stopping it and lateness too.
We also accept many people who wouldn't get into other schools - caring.
We also have the Campbell and Patricia centre's (Yes, I sometimes get the odd "Campbell centre" joke...) which is people mentally/physically challanged.
And a programme thing to go with that, "Best Buddies".
It's where we have one buddy if we want from the Patricia or Campbell centre and hang out with them and ocassionally in the weekends and holidays.
Our school was is getting better thanks to our principal who does have faith in us.
Our grades are better than Fairfield in most areas and some in other areas...
That's only in half a year.
Imagine our school in 3.
I love my school.
I will stick up for it no matter what happens.
I only say cute if I mean it.
Although I say it lots... It just means my "cute" tolerance is low.
Also.
I only say sorry if I mean it.
Otherwise why bother and let them think I was sorry when I wasn't...
I have alot to say I just sometimes don't get the chance to.