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Sweet darlin'
This is my confession to
The crimes of wanting you... badly.
And darlin' if you're wondering
Here's your answer
Yes, I like you.
I don't love you.
I can't love you.
Yet.
-[BTT]
So much is overwhelming right now and I can't pick out certain things except the ones that involve you. Like how I miss falling asleep with my phone under my pillow waiting for the vibration to wake me when you called. Something about knowing you would always call and I'd sneak out and we'd sit on the couch for hours watching alternately worthless or educational television was comforting. Sleep doesn't come nearly as easy now and no matter how I try to replace you it always falls apart. He seemed comfortable, you told me I should give it a chance. Now I feel like I have lost a little part of me and it has only become blatantly obvious how much I need you in my life. I know I'm just that girl who is in your life in that inexplainable way. Connecting on so many levels but just falling into that friend pattern. I miss you's and promised visits only go so far and maybe someday we will live in the same zip code. That is all I can really hope for at this point, that someday things will work out and we can be in each other's lives in some minute way. Until then I will revel in our late night chats that last for hours and pretend to take your advice because when I do I end up more miserable than before.
This is my confession to
The crimes of wanting you... badly.
And darlin' if you're wondering
Here's your answer
Yes, I like you.
I don't love you.
I can't love you.
Yet.
-[BTT]
So much is overwhelming right now and I can't pick out certain things except the ones that involve you. Like how I miss falling asleep with my phone under my pillow waiting for the vibration to wake me when you called. Something about knowing you would always call and I'd sneak out and we'd sit on the couch for hours watching alternately worthless or educational television was comforting. Sleep doesn't come nearly as easy now and no matter how I try to replace you it always falls apart. He seemed comfortable, you told me I should give it a chance. Now I feel like I have lost a little part of me and it has only become blatantly obvious how much I need you in my life. I know I'm just that girl who is in your life in that inexplainable way. Connecting on so many levels but just falling into that friend pattern. I miss you's and promised visits only go so far and maybe someday we will live in the same zip code. That is all I can really hope for at this point, that someday things will work out and we can be in each other's lives in some minute way. Until then I will revel in our late night chats that last for hours and pretend to take your advice because when I do I end up more miserable than before.