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I'm so pissed off. sean knows about me cutting and says if i do it again he'll do it. that pisses me off. When people know i cut i get really unhappy and i end up wanting to do it again. Why cant people leave me the fuck alone when i want to be left alone. I want to handle my own problems by myself. i dont want to get people unhappy. expecially veronica.i make her unhappy enough. alyssa hates me anyway, seans depressed, and i dont even know if carlynn knows. i want to be dead. but i wont do anything. i cant. i already let myself slip im not gonna do it again. I need to stop.its not easy but i HAVE to. if i dont i dont know how i can ever be happy. i used to think i couldnt be happy unless i did cut but now i know that if i do it im just making myself unhappy and depressed. it makes me a bad person and a horrible bor friend/friend. it makes me a hypocrit and an overll jack ass. i love to many people to let it get to me, i Have to get better i Have to.