I never do this anymore.......
So all and all life is good. Ya know the good and the bad do kinda equal each other most the time but I'd say it is getting better. Liek I tell people about the twins, I couldn't have one without the other, they are exact opposites. MY YIN AND YANG. Pie is heaven on a freakin stick, she is the perfect little girl. Last night she was freezing at the park but refused to wear sweat pants over her BEAUTIFUL tights and finally she put them on. I mean to be 4 years old and rather be beautiful than comfortable, I thought that was a learned behavior but she really loves looking pretty and hates to wear anything that would make her look like a boy. Ben is hell on wheels, dropped the F bomb at school and just refuses to stop whining ALL THE TIME, complaining constantly. Ben is smarter I think and is definitley more loving and affectionate though. So I really love the good parts of each and need the one to compliment the other. What would I do without Pie's help and what would I do without Bennie's hugs. Gabe, he is a conundrum, you throw him in the mix and you either get screaming or alot of fun play, depends on their moods. I have yet to see how Gabe will turn out, he loves dressing up like pie and wearing make up but he loves Thomas Train so who knows what will happen there. I would rather not have to keep them traveling from bed to bed all the time, but hey I didn't make their lives this way. I atleast don't have to live with that guilt.
Last night me and Lauren and Ashlyn took them to the Christmas Lights at Stone Mountain Park. It was soooooo cold, but we had a great time, they got to meet the Snow Princess, we walked throught the shops, ate dinner at this really good restraunt, drove down snow flake lane, roasted marshmallows over a camp fire, drank hot chocolate and watched the laser light Christmaas show. It was almost like family again, it is starting to feel more comfortable for me to live this life. I really enjoy how much L has changed, she is like she was when I first met her and that is a good thing! I am not a disciplinarian as much as she is and even though she rides Ben's ass, he has bonded with her more than Pie. I think he understand her caring to correct him.
I need to start working on the house some more. I need to go see Kylie, she is still in the hospital for 3 weeks, her platlets suck and for every round of chemo she has to get blood transfusions. She will spend her 4th Christmas in the hospital and that is sad but I am so happy she has such a good chance to survive this Leukemia. I have never seen my Dad so angry at the world, hopefully everything will be ok. IT really makes you think of how unfair life can be for such a little kid to go thru that much pain and sickness. Everyone says things happen for a reason, but nothing can be that good that comes out of a kid being sick. I just don't believe that way.
Last night me and Lauren and Ashlyn took them to the Christmas Lights at Stone Mountain Park. It was soooooo cold, but we had a great time, they got to meet the Snow Princess, we walked throught the shops, ate dinner at this really good restraunt, drove down snow flake lane, roasted marshmallows over a camp fire, drank hot chocolate and watched the laser light Christmaas show. It was almost like family again, it is starting to feel more comfortable for me to live this life. I really enjoy how much L has changed, she is like she was when I first met her and that is a good thing! I am not a disciplinarian as much as she is and even though she rides Ben's ass, he has bonded with her more than Pie. I think he understand her caring to correct him.
I need to start working on the house some more. I need to go see Kylie, she is still in the hospital for 3 weeks, her platlets suck and for every round of chemo she has to get blood transfusions. She will spend her 4th Christmas in the hospital and that is sad but I am so happy she has such a good chance to survive this Leukemia. I have never seen my Dad so angry at the world, hopefully everything will be ok. IT really makes you think of how unfair life can be for such a little kid to go thru that much pain and sickness. Everyone says things happen for a reason, but nothing can be that good that comes out of a kid being sick. I just don't believe that way.