lost for all eternity

[milf101]

Are you ever shocked with a wave of new emotions?
Do you ever surprise yourself with something completely random?

I don't know what I think.
I'm so confused.

I reacted in the most least expected way....
It was like a slap in the face.
A slap in the face from myself.

I don't know what I did. But I think I know why I did it.

My thoughts all scream one word to me.
Denial. Denial. Denial.

My actions scare me.
I don't want to lose him.
I don't know how to keep him.
I don't know how to keep myself.