Hmm update..
Well, life has been pretty good lately, I've been REALLY happy. I got a new job at Price Less, been there for a week and i absolutely love it! I work like 30 hrs a week. Seems to be M-F and i've had the weekends off so far.. strange but cool with me. I've been thinking a lot about life and how strange it seems that things happen. I mean what are the chances that my brother would meet a girl on the internet (Brittany), talk to her for four yrs, she finally comes out here and maybe things ended up not working out with them, but then we became best friend, i go out there meet a guy, fall in love, travel half way across the United States three times... decide to move, change my mind break up my b/f and in the end, i end up right back where i started, working, going to school, single, lonely, but VERY appreciative of the friends i have, just with a whole lot more memories, and broken hearts along the way. I wished that things could have happened differently, as far as the broken hearts go... i hate that, not only does it hurt me, and it does, but i hate the fact that i hurt other people so that hurts too. I don't know i am a lot happier now though, with deciding to stay and be me, live life in the present moment. I feel guilty for being happier though. I don't know i just am though.. just happier. So anyway, i stood on my feet and worked all day, now I'm going to go lie in my bed and sleep all night, ohh and have GOOD dreams for a change... i haven't had another nightmare, my mommy got me a dream-catcher from Arizona while she was there, she gave it to me Saturday when she got back, and i've felt better every since.... Yes i know its probably all in my head, but hey, the dream-catcher is there in my room now, so i guess it would be hard to ever really know why they stopped, that is assuming that they have. (Praying that they have). Well goodnight everyone!! Miss you, Love You all.... XOXO