The days that roll past.
Wow...
Ok so i'm not good wih posting onm a regular basis. Lets face it, i suck at email too. Chats and phone. Thats my medium. Id make a terrible pen pal. Soooo that aside lets get to the post shall we. So much to write, so many thoughts. lets start wtih fun and work our way down.
First off....easter... WTF. Yes im ashamed to say i do work in retail...the lowest of the low. Not just retail but Mejiers. for those unfamiliar, walmart made a supper store. Ya know grocery, junk, more junk etc etc. Mejiers my dear freind is the cause, Fred Meijer, and his fatehr came up with eh idea of all your shopping needs under one roof. Thats right i work for the rat bastards that come up with the super store. Anyways back on track. Easter....retail loves to make money off this crap. cheep over priced crap made in chin sold in bulk to morons who love to buy crap they dont need that will help add to our dumps. But oh my dear freinds the insults do not end. Easter a PAGAN holiday to celibrate fertility and life, hence the rabbit and eggs. Has ever taken a insulting and dare i say morbid turn. The store sell something called "resurect eggs" yes in an ever continuing attempt to wipe all other religon to oblivion toy easter eggs are now sold filled with "memorabilia" of Christ. Crosses, nails, donkies etc. For shame. not only to take a once pagan holiday and place a death over simly caus ehte exsact date isnt surly known but seriously...the very symbol for fertility? i had to laugh my ass off. But it gets better. Passover. While i respect the jewish community and their holidays. Ok come on i cant take some things seriusly. To be detailed? the store sold "plauge masks" and "plauge critters" I kid you not. Ther are the creatures form the 7 plauges moses brought to the egyptians...foam maskes labled death, blood, frogs etc. >.> the world love to ridiule emo's and goths. Yet here we are giving jewish kids foam maskes with little foam bugs and frogs glued to masks labled after horrible plauges!? I understand passover, but seriously i wana slap anyone buying these toys. What coudl posses anyoent o market and sell something as crude, insulting and as tacky as passover plauge toys. >.> Jews have been persicuted for years threw history and unfair stereo types, it would seem that someone is least making a proffit off that. Again i laugh my ass off and say FOR SHAME.
As for myself. SOme have asked me privatly. I ...Am ...stable i suppose. I have gone numb a lot. But i have found tht i still can smile. What has been lost i can never regain in my wildest dreams and yes that sadness nd those tears come when i least expect but that dosnt not destry me and i cherish it cause it reminds me that i have not lied to myself and my heart. Does it haunt me...every day i wake but hautn is a cruel term we rember our best times and cherish them, these to are haunting things that we carry always there gone but never gone and im happy knowing that my haunting past isnt bad. I carry on cause i have much i am needed for and to try and achieve and for what was given to me and taught to me so long and not so long ago. I have met many and i love you all. To thos ive talked to that i could but wish i was with you and could share everything im sorry i am not. Nor can i share what i didnt have tthe time to be part of again. I will always be here for you all and i wishi was closer to you when you needed someone...and when i needed some one as well. I live and i love and i always will until it is over, and not by my choice. I do well, i push on. I have quit drinking im glad and afraid. Silnce does not bode well in my mind and drinking only makes me rember the pain. if ever well and sober perhapps better than i have ever been simlly cause im to old to party and drink myself stupid. There is so much more i could say but id rather not. Know i am well and i love you all, im not going anywhere and ill be ther for anyone that ever needs me.
Now to current events. Mega behind. mega ahead. Sorry nauta i still havnt gotten to doing the fc pics >< Sorry fox i need to get those pics of this town. Kysh im glad to hear you in the air again, i ope some day i can see you in the sky myself or even sititgn next to you seeign the world form more than a little window in a airliner. Ive coem rahter far, my "family" has grown im glad to be a fahter to those that need a shoulder or just someoen to listen. I love to be needed, and i wish for someone of you i could give the advice you need more than an old dog listning and saying he cares. LOl but i got to hear you smile ..if that makes sense. I love to make peopel happy again and im glad that ive had that chance for so many of you! Ah and soon school getting back into over priced books to learn things...i hope i pass :P
Yes still the same old insane wolf. Bio genetics. WTF was i thinking? MAbey a few dreams. mabey a few second chances for people in this world. I can but hope i dont flunk out and can give a little more light back. Wish me luck. :)
Ok so i'm not good wih posting onm a regular basis. Lets face it, i suck at email too. Chats and phone. Thats my medium. Id make a terrible pen pal. Soooo that aside lets get to the post shall we. So much to write, so many thoughts. lets start wtih fun and work our way down.
First off....easter... WTF. Yes im ashamed to say i do work in retail...the lowest of the low. Not just retail but Mejiers. for those unfamiliar, walmart made a supper store. Ya know grocery, junk, more junk etc etc. Mejiers my dear freind is the cause, Fred Meijer, and his fatehr came up with eh idea of all your shopping needs under one roof. Thats right i work for the rat bastards that come up with the super store. Anyways back on track. Easter....retail loves to make money off this crap. cheep over priced crap made in chin sold in bulk to morons who love to buy crap they dont need that will help add to our dumps. But oh my dear freinds the insults do not end. Easter a PAGAN holiday to celibrate fertility and life, hence the rabbit and eggs. Has ever taken a insulting and dare i say morbid turn. The store sell something called "resurect eggs" yes in an ever continuing attempt to wipe all other religon to oblivion toy easter eggs are now sold filled with "memorabilia" of Christ. Crosses, nails, donkies etc. For shame. not only to take a once pagan holiday and place a death over simly caus ehte exsact date isnt surly known but seriously...the very symbol for fertility? i had to laugh my ass off. But it gets better. Passover. While i respect the jewish community and their holidays. Ok come on i cant take some things seriusly. To be detailed? the store sold "plauge masks" and "plauge critters" I kid you not. Ther are the creatures form the 7 plauges moses brought to the egyptians...foam maskes labled death, blood, frogs etc. >.> the world love to ridiule emo's and goths. Yet here we are giving jewish kids foam maskes with little foam bugs and frogs glued to masks labled after horrible plauges!? I understand passover, but seriously i wana slap anyone buying these toys. What coudl posses anyoent o market and sell something as crude, insulting and as tacky as passover plauge toys. >.> Jews have been persicuted for years threw history and unfair stereo types, it would seem that someone is least making a proffit off that. Again i laugh my ass off and say FOR SHAME.
As for myself. SOme have asked me privatly. I ...Am ...stable i suppose. I have gone numb a lot. But i have found tht i still can smile. What has been lost i can never regain in my wildest dreams and yes that sadness nd those tears come when i least expect but that dosnt not destry me and i cherish it cause it reminds me that i have not lied to myself and my heart. Does it haunt me...every day i wake but hautn is a cruel term we rember our best times and cherish them, these to are haunting things that we carry always there gone but never gone and im happy knowing that my haunting past isnt bad. I carry on cause i have much i am needed for and to try and achieve and for what was given to me and taught to me so long and not so long ago. I have met many and i love you all. To thos ive talked to that i could but wish i was with you and could share everything im sorry i am not. Nor can i share what i didnt have tthe time to be part of again. I will always be here for you all and i wishi was closer to you when you needed someone...and when i needed some one as well. I live and i love and i always will until it is over, and not by my choice. I do well, i push on. I have quit drinking im glad and afraid. Silnce does not bode well in my mind and drinking only makes me rember the pain. if ever well and sober perhapps better than i have ever been simlly cause im to old to party and drink myself stupid. There is so much more i could say but id rather not. Know i am well and i love you all, im not going anywhere and ill be ther for anyone that ever needs me.
Now to current events. Mega behind. mega ahead. Sorry nauta i still havnt gotten to doing the fc pics >< Sorry fox i need to get those pics of this town. Kysh im glad to hear you in the air again, i ope some day i can see you in the sky myself or even sititgn next to you seeign the world form more than a little window in a airliner. Ive coem rahter far, my "family" has grown im glad to be a fahter to those that need a shoulder or just someoen to listen. I love to be needed, and i wish for someone of you i could give the advice you need more than an old dog listning and saying he cares. LOl but i got to hear you smile ..if that makes sense. I love to make peopel happy again and im glad that ive had that chance for so many of you! Ah and soon school getting back into over priced books to learn things...i hope i pass :P
Yes still the same old insane wolf. Bio genetics. WTF was i thinking? MAbey a few dreams. mabey a few second chances for people in this world. I can but hope i dont flunk out and can give a little more light back. Wish me luck. :)