Dead ends and somethings learned. ALL that and FC too!?
Long have i sought answers. I have found more than i was ment to. Only now do i realize what a fool i have been.
Kyle let everyone know him, as he wanted an wished for them to know him. I knew hima nd about him even things he wouldnt talk to me about when i asked him about them. That was his choice. He long held me on a diffrent level than others, as he did with each person in his life. There are things he wanted us to know, and he told us. Seking more than we were given has only caused me more pain. I will always want to know more, that is human nature. But if i was ment to know, he would have told me or let me in. I like to belive as he told me more he wanted me to know. Those words will now never come. I should now respect what he gave me and not pry where i was not ment to be. I can not speak for everyone, only hope that they two will find this to be true less they keep searching and find something. If you find something now and jump to a conclusion. He wont be thre to tell you the truth. Information is a dangerious thing in ones hands. All i need to know. all i ever needed to know was what he already told me. And what i already knew. He loved me and i love him forever. I hope someday i will be part of him again. Until then my memories are what i shall cherish, not just covet all he was. Besides, if he saw me doing all that he would be mad at me. Love you where ever you are i hope to see you again.
Miles
On lighter note, I shall be leaving to FC soon. The first time ill have been in cali in 11 years. I cant say my last trip was all that fun. but thats a whole diffrent story. Ill just ay religious fanatics are NUTS! I go with a heavey heart but new hope, From the afor mentioned paragraph I can honestly say i go to meet people see faces i never gotto see when he was there. Im no longer fearing going to Cali to morn and find more about who i have lost. Im now going to Live, relax, meet people and try and be the person my panther was happy to be around. He liked to smack me around and push me to be better and think more of myself. I cant just mope around the rest of my life ignore what he wanted of me. For ll of you i shall see, i hope you are greeted by my smile. Thank you for being part of his life. And i hope that i can least say hi to you, and mabey be part of yours even if just for a breif moment. Life goes on, and i want to meet you all, not to cry any more but to be happy the way e would want me to be. Way he wants us all to be.
Miles Blackwolf
Kyle let everyone know him, as he wanted an wished for them to know him. I knew hima nd about him even things he wouldnt talk to me about when i asked him about them. That was his choice. He long held me on a diffrent level than others, as he did with each person in his life. There are things he wanted us to know, and he told us. Seking more than we were given has only caused me more pain. I will always want to know more, that is human nature. But if i was ment to know, he would have told me or let me in. I like to belive as he told me more he wanted me to know. Those words will now never come. I should now respect what he gave me and not pry where i was not ment to be. I can not speak for everyone, only hope that they two will find this to be true less they keep searching and find something. If you find something now and jump to a conclusion. He wont be thre to tell you the truth. Information is a dangerious thing in ones hands. All i need to know. all i ever needed to know was what he already told me. And what i already knew. He loved me and i love him forever. I hope someday i will be part of him again. Until then my memories are what i shall cherish, not just covet all he was. Besides, if he saw me doing all that he would be mad at me. Love you where ever you are i hope to see you again.
Miles
On lighter note, I shall be leaving to FC soon. The first time ill have been in cali in 11 years. I cant say my last trip was all that fun. but thats a whole diffrent story. Ill just ay religious fanatics are NUTS! I go with a heavey heart but new hope, From the afor mentioned paragraph I can honestly say i go to meet people see faces i never gotto see when he was there. Im no longer fearing going to Cali to morn and find more about who i have lost. Im now going to Live, relax, meet people and try and be the person my panther was happy to be around. He liked to smack me around and push me to be better and think more of myself. I cant just mope around the rest of my life ignore what he wanted of me. For ll of you i shall see, i hope you are greeted by my smile. Thank you for being part of his life. And i hope that i can least say hi to you, and mabey be part of yours even if just for a breif moment. Life goes on, and i want to meet you all, not to cry any more but to be happy the way e would want me to be. Way he wants us all to be.
Miles Blackwolf