A panther lost, a life to live.
As i sit and try to stay calm, amidst a storm of fear ad sorrow, i find that i forget the most important things.
Many that may read this may know of what i speak. A great man to any that knew him, Grimalkin or as the world knew him as Kyle Mannerberg. He passed away and left a legacy and for many a hole that we seek to understand and to find a way to fill what will never be replaced. For those that knew of me and Kyle, he was my first in so many ways. And for much of my life an anchor that kept me alive. A world supported by a single person. This in no way is ever meant to say i was anything more or less than anyone else. And for those that knew him, friends, lovers, ex's and anyone else that was close, i come to a realization, not just to me....but for all of us. I felt as though half my life was ripped form me But its not, the life of me that was him and still is, isn't gone. But now its our legacy to live the life that he touched. For some of us i honestly belive he kept us going and alive. All we can do now is live for him and carry on who kyle was to make him proud and if possible, let the people that never knew him, to know what kind of person he was.
I my self can only move on, thankful that my mate Kyle met my mate and that someone is still here to hold me in place. Im still needed, all of us are. We all have roles and friends that need us. If nothing more than the people meeting for the first time in the house in California. Kyle left more than a legacy behind. to thsoe reading this. He left a family. All of you that were part of his life. All of you carry him with you, be there for each other. We all share a bond, some more some less, but its all the same in the end, we all loved him and still do. We are all family, And we all need each other, now most of all. Love each other the same as you would a brother.
still so much undone, untold, unlived, and a call fo help.
He lead such a secretive life. tell some some things nad others other things, that kept an air about him of never fully knowing what was going on. we had many plans ...much of wich he seemd to kep saying id find out as time went on. That time has been cut short. Adn the storm of chaos in me seems to never fully stop. I ..was denied so much time with him, only to finally be close again. ut so many holes are left that i will never knwo the answeres to. Please. to anyone that can ...tell me more. I i must leave off here soon. As i feel i cant quit stay as strong asi had hope when i started to write. I wish i could know you all and be there. His life was so much of my world and agian i feel fate has denied e being aprt of it when i need it the most. if anyone can help me, tell me what missing gaps are...tell me what henever had a cnace to tell me. please. its all i really have anymore. I know...what i ask may be selfish, and im sorry if it is, I just really wish i had gotten to be back in his life th way we had talekd. i . ,, ill never have that, our time was cut away. Please. im sorry for what i ask.
Miles Blackwolf
Aim: Milesablackwolf
yim: Milesablackwolf2001
Many that may read this may know of what i speak. A great man to any that knew him, Grimalkin or as the world knew him as Kyle Mannerberg. He passed away and left a legacy and for many a hole that we seek to understand and to find a way to fill what will never be replaced. For those that knew of me and Kyle, he was my first in so many ways. And for much of my life an anchor that kept me alive. A world supported by a single person. This in no way is ever meant to say i was anything more or less than anyone else. And for those that knew him, friends, lovers, ex's and anyone else that was close, i come to a realization, not just to me....but for all of us. I felt as though half my life was ripped form me But its not, the life of me that was him and still is, isn't gone. But now its our legacy to live the life that he touched. For some of us i honestly belive he kept us going and alive. All we can do now is live for him and carry on who kyle was to make him proud and if possible, let the people that never knew him, to know what kind of person he was.
I my self can only move on, thankful that my mate Kyle met my mate and that someone is still here to hold me in place. Im still needed, all of us are. We all have roles and friends that need us. If nothing more than the people meeting for the first time in the house in California. Kyle left more than a legacy behind. to thsoe reading this. He left a family. All of you that were part of his life. All of you carry him with you, be there for each other. We all share a bond, some more some less, but its all the same in the end, we all loved him and still do. We are all family, And we all need each other, now most of all. Love each other the same as you would a brother.
still so much undone, untold, unlived, and a call fo help.
He lead such a secretive life. tell some some things nad others other things, that kept an air about him of never fully knowing what was going on. we had many plans ...much of wich he seemd to kep saying id find out as time went on. That time has been cut short. Adn the storm of chaos in me seems to never fully stop. I ..was denied so much time with him, only to finally be close again. ut so many holes are left that i will never knwo the answeres to. Please. to anyone that can ...tell me more. I i must leave off here soon. As i feel i cant quit stay as strong asi had hope when i started to write. I wish i could know you all and be there. His life was so much of my world and agian i feel fate has denied e being aprt of it when i need it the most. if anyone can help me, tell me what missing gaps are...tell me what henever had a cnace to tell me. please. its all i really have anymore. I know...what i ask may be selfish, and im sorry if it is, I just really wish i had gotten to be back in his life th way we had talekd. i . ,, ill never have that, our time was cut away. Please. im sorry for what i ask.
Miles Blackwolf
Aim: Milesablackwolf
yim: Milesablackwolf2001