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[mildman]

I just had one of the most........ hm, interesting conversations i have ever had. i talked with my mom and my moms best friend about my father. So, i came to the final conclusion that my whole life has been pushed in a direction in which he could always be better than me. some might say no one is like that, but i guarantee you that is what it is. from my early day he forced me to play sports, against my will, because he knew he would always be better than me at it, because i dont like them. now i have started my art, and he tries to be better. he starts painting after taking an entire year or two off, once i start getting serious about my stuff. i satrt to show a few people my poetry, and he starts poetry too. i leave and he calls me to brag about qhat he does. thats his small talk, how good his new painting is. i learned that he he cares to much for what other people think, but never admits it. i hate him, and it makes me sad, but i am glad i finally found this out.

mmy mom jokingly, but none the less, mentioned living on the road almost with the company she is working with, me getting home schooled, going where the people where needed. being based in arkansas. i think it would be fun, and i would go all over the U.S.
so yea, out