Weird morning...
So I took a while getting up this morning and that was fine, and then I can't find my bra. Not that irritating.
But I can't seem to find my bra.
Its the only one I have that isn't to small for me.
Somehow, not finding my bra, not finding any of the clothes I want to wear, somehow, somehow, got me so angry and depressed that I tried to take it out on Eddie.
Not having clothes that fit and not fiding the bra that I can wear with the only clothes tha DO FIT made me an emotional basket case.
OH MY GOD.
COME ON.
In a nut shell, not finding my bra transcended into myself being fat. Why does EVERYTHING HAVE TO COME BACK TO THAT?!
So, I yelled at Eddie, yelled at the cat, slammed doors, and got myself all worked up OVER A FUCKING FIVE YEAR OLD BRA BECAUSE I WAS FEELING F A T.
Why is the ground I am walking on seem to get perpetually unstable?
Why do I have to cause tension in my relationships because I'm feeling insecure?
WHY?
I'm feeling better though. Everyone at work is always so nice. =) To bad sitting on my ass all day isn't helping my situation.
Did I mention..............
THAT WE HAVE A LAWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I paid Eddie's little brother $2.50 to help me pull weeds for a couple hours, Eddie got off work early to pick up the sod and put it in, and he bought some more potted flowers too. IT IS BEAUTIFUL.
I had such a great afternoon yesterday, I don't know why I all of a sudden get plunged into nasty moods.
I seriously almost had a nervous breakdown, and all I could think about was how pissed off at Eddie I was for not freaking out over my bra as well. Why?
I think that, as we are recovering slowly from thousands of years or rape, neglect, and hardship, womens memories from the past have created vibrational imperfections in our bodies, that are reflected in our hormones.
Great, we have bagage even when we are born.
Thats why I love Eddie, He can handle my bagage and just keep paddling =)
But I can't seem to find my bra.
Its the only one I have that isn't to small for me.
Somehow, not finding my bra, not finding any of the clothes I want to wear, somehow, somehow, got me so angry and depressed that I tried to take it out on Eddie.
Not having clothes that fit and not fiding the bra that I can wear with the only clothes tha DO FIT made me an emotional basket case.
OH MY GOD.
COME ON.
In a nut shell, not finding my bra transcended into myself being fat. Why does EVERYTHING HAVE TO COME BACK TO THAT?!
So, I yelled at Eddie, yelled at the cat, slammed doors, and got myself all worked up OVER A FUCKING FIVE YEAR OLD BRA BECAUSE I WAS FEELING F A T.
Why is the ground I am walking on seem to get perpetually unstable?
Why do I have to cause tension in my relationships because I'm feeling insecure?
WHY?
I'm feeling better though. Everyone at work is always so nice. =) To bad sitting on my ass all day isn't helping my situation.
Did I mention..............
THAT WE HAVE A LAWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I paid Eddie's little brother $2.50 to help me pull weeds for a couple hours, Eddie got off work early to pick up the sod and put it in, and he bought some more potted flowers too. IT IS BEAUTIFUL.
I had such a great afternoon yesterday, I don't know why I all of a sudden get plunged into nasty moods.
I seriously almost had a nervous breakdown, and all I could think about was how pissed off at Eddie I was for not freaking out over my bra as well. Why?
I think that, as we are recovering slowly from thousands of years or rape, neglect, and hardship, womens memories from the past have created vibrational imperfections in our bodies, that are reflected in our hormones.
Great, we have bagage even when we are born.
Thats why I love Eddie, He can handle my bagage and just keep paddling =)