geeeeze
note to self:
always follow your first instinct.
it's ALWAYS what you should've done in the end.
[or at least 99% of the time]
long distance relationships suck.
dont be in one.
and if you are. good luck.
ok i mean..
I loooove christopher.
but not being able to ever see him SUCKS
well he's flying in exactly a week from now
[on christmas]
and I am wayy excited.
but ughhhhhhh.
what about after that?
another long, hard 2 or 3 months.
hopefully things will be better
hopefully we can make it.
I just want him to move back.
but he's forming a life there.
forgetting about the one he ever had here.
Im losing myself.
Im hurting.
Im taking too much time trying to help him
and not enough for myself.
sometimes I wish I just didnt care so much.
but I do.
thats what love does to you I suppose.
fuck
♥ polar bear. circle. yum yums. ♥
man,
who ever writes in livejournal anymore?
the whole world has been swallowed by myspace.
oh well..
it just allows me to write freely here :]
cuz sometimes that's all I need.