bye, lj
so, I have absolutely no idea how to go about making this post, so please bear with me.
okay. starting with the reason I'm not writing fic anymore:
to be completely frank, I got bored with it. I've been writing the same five characters for two years now, and it's gotten old. there's only so much you can do with their personalities before they're completely ooc, and at this point, I've done all I can do with them. I've done all I want to do with them. sure, I still have lots of plot ideas in my 'fic ideas' folder, but when I look at those compared to what I've already done, I'm content with leaving them alone. I wrote over fifty fics and just short of 400k words worth of fic in 2012 alone. and in 2011, of course, you have the monster of a fic that is mae. what I'm saying is that I've done an insane amount of writing for this fandom in the past couple of years, and I've just.. lost the desire to continue writing the same people in different situations. it feels very limited as a writer (and please forgive me because that sounds so pretentious I am cringing), and I think there are more things I could be doing than writing different versions of the same people, settings, and pairings again and again. I still love the boys, I just don't want to continue writing stories using their names. I've been saying for a while that writing fanfiction isn't the right thing for me, it's just now that I'm actually calling it quits.
of course, that's not to say that I think fic writing wasn't important, or fun, or anything along those lines. if I didn't genuinely love writing fic back then, then I wouldn't have done it so dilligently for so long. I loved contributing to the fandom, and sharing writing with you guys, and hearing all of the things you had to say about it when I was finished. it made all of the work worth it, really, to read your comments here or your asks on tumblr. I loved every bit of it, and I still look forward to any and every comment I'll get on here or on tumblr or anywhere, with you guys' feedback on my past entries. I always appreciated--and always will appreciate every single one of you taking time out of your day to write out a comment, read my writing, or even click on the link to my livejournal. I really want you guys to know that even if I'm out of the fic-writing game, it doesn't mean it's because I don't appreciate every one of you. your comments were always and probably will continue to be a foolproof way to brighten any of my days.
I want to thank you guys, from the bottom of my heart, for sticking with me throughout my writing here. whether you were here from way back when I was trying my hand at jongkey oneshots, when I was writing mae, or if you stumbled upon me with camera shy. there's no way I could've made it through these years without you guys. I can't explain how much writing these stories and interacting with you guys has helped me through the past two years. I've made some of the best friends I can imagine through livejournal, and met people that mean the world to me. and I don't even know how to properly thank you for all that you've done for me, even if you don't realize it.
oh lord now I'm getting really emotional. uhmm what else.
I won't, repeat WILL NOT be deleting my journal, and if that changes anytime in the future (which I doubt it will), I would do something like make a zip file of my fics for you guys. don't worry about that. they're staying here, even if I'm not going to be adding to them. this decision is a final one, guys, so please don't continue to ask me if I'll be writing a sequel to a fic, writing for a different fandom, taking requests, or anything like that. I don't mean to sound rude about it, but this is a decision that I'm not going back on. I've made up my mind, and that's the end of it. no more fic from me, no exceptions, so it would honestly be a waste of your time to ask me to reconsider. there won't be any "surprise" fics or things like that, so please don't expect that. I know I'm being blunt, but I don't want any of you to get your hopes up.
also, I've had several people ask me this, so let me just say.. I'm not going to stop writing in general. how would I ever stop writing?? no way. writing is the way I keep myself sane, and I can't imagine living without it. as for what I'll be writing from here on? your guess is as good as mine. short stories, novels, screenplays.. generally anything I feel, I guess. I don't know if I'm going to post any of my original writing (let me cringe again. I'm sorry I sound like a tool), or where, but it won't be here to this journal. I honestly don't know. we'll see when we get there c:
and another concern I've gotten.. guys, I'm definitely not leaving the fandom. how could I even try to abandon shinee?? and leave before exo has their comeback?? no way. I'll still be over on tumblr, if anyone wants to talk to me. I know I'm bad at replying lately because I'm actually really busy nowadays, but I still try to reply to all I can. you can expect to see me over there crying over shinee and jongkey and kaisoo and everything else, so please don't think that just because I'm done here on lj, that I'll be gone from the internet forever, okay?? I'll still be here ;w;
and.. I think that's it. I'm getting really sad writing this now OTL I feel like I still have so much left to say that I'm forgetting. fjkldsajkfklsajfafkdlsajf forgive me.
but either way. thank you guys again for being here, reading my fics, and supporting me. to think that there are still people supporting me even after I'm done writing for the fandom makes me so happy I can't even tell you. thank you guys so much. it's been a lot of fun here for the past two years c':
I'll see you on tumblr ^^
kat
mikssi
okay. starting with the reason I'm not writing fic anymore:
to be completely frank, I got bored with it. I've been writing the same five characters for two years now, and it's gotten old. there's only so much you can do with their personalities before they're completely ooc, and at this point, I've done all I can do with them. I've done all I want to do with them. sure, I still have lots of plot ideas in my 'fic ideas' folder, but when I look at those compared to what I've already done, I'm content with leaving them alone. I wrote over fifty fics and just short of 400k words worth of fic in 2012 alone. and in 2011, of course, you have the monster of a fic that is mae. what I'm saying is that I've done an insane amount of writing for this fandom in the past couple of years, and I've just.. lost the desire to continue writing the same people in different situations. it feels very limited as a writer (and please forgive me because that sounds so pretentious I am cringing), and I think there are more things I could be doing than writing different versions of the same people, settings, and pairings again and again. I still love the boys, I just don't want to continue writing stories using their names. I've been saying for a while that writing fanfiction isn't the right thing for me, it's just now that I'm actually calling it quits.
of course, that's not to say that I think fic writing wasn't important, or fun, or anything along those lines. if I didn't genuinely love writing fic back then, then I wouldn't have done it so dilligently for so long. I loved contributing to the fandom, and sharing writing with you guys, and hearing all of the things you had to say about it when I was finished. it made all of the work worth it, really, to read your comments here or your asks on tumblr. I loved every bit of it, and I still look forward to any and every comment I'll get on here or on tumblr or anywhere, with you guys' feedback on my past entries. I always appreciated--and always will appreciate every single one of you taking time out of your day to write out a comment, read my writing, or even click on the link to my livejournal. I really want you guys to know that even if I'm out of the fic-writing game, it doesn't mean it's because I don't appreciate every one of you. your comments were always and probably will continue to be a foolproof way to brighten any of my days.
I want to thank you guys, from the bottom of my heart, for sticking with me throughout my writing here. whether you were here from way back when I was trying my hand at jongkey oneshots, when I was writing mae, or if you stumbled upon me with camera shy. there's no way I could've made it through these years without you guys. I can't explain how much writing these stories and interacting with you guys has helped me through the past two years. I've made some of the best friends I can imagine through livejournal, and met people that mean the world to me. and I don't even know how to properly thank you for all that you've done for me, even if you don't realize it.
oh lord now I'm getting really emotional. uhmm what else.
I won't, repeat WILL NOT be deleting my journal, and if that changes anytime in the future (which I doubt it will), I would do something like make a zip file of my fics for you guys. don't worry about that. they're staying here, even if I'm not going to be adding to them. this decision is a final one, guys, so please don't continue to ask me if I'll be writing a sequel to a fic, writing for a different fandom, taking requests, or anything like that. I don't mean to sound rude about it, but this is a decision that I'm not going back on. I've made up my mind, and that's the end of it. no more fic from me, no exceptions, so it would honestly be a waste of your time to ask me to reconsider. there won't be any "surprise" fics or things like that, so please don't expect that. I know I'm being blunt, but I don't want any of you to get your hopes up.
also, I've had several people ask me this, so let me just say.. I'm not going to stop writing in general. how would I ever stop writing?? no way. writing is the way I keep myself sane, and I can't imagine living without it. as for what I'll be writing from here on? your guess is as good as mine. short stories, novels, screenplays.. generally anything I feel, I guess. I don't know if I'm going to post any of my original writing (let me cringe again. I'm sorry I sound like a tool), or where, but it won't be here to this journal. I honestly don't know. we'll see when we get there c:
and another concern I've gotten.. guys, I'm definitely not leaving the fandom. how could I even try to abandon shinee?? and leave before exo has their comeback?? no way. I'll still be over on tumblr, if anyone wants to talk to me. I know I'm bad at replying lately because I'm actually really busy nowadays, but I still try to reply to all I can. you can expect to see me over there crying over shinee and jongkey and kaisoo and everything else, so please don't think that just because I'm done here on lj, that I'll be gone from the internet forever, okay?? I'll still be here ;w;
and.. I think that's it. I'm getting really sad writing this now OTL I feel like I still have so much left to say that I'm forgetting. fjkldsajkfklsajfafkdlsajf forgive me.
but either way. thank you guys again for being here, reading my fics, and supporting me. to think that there are still people supporting me even after I'm done writing for the fandom makes me so happy I can't even tell you. thank you guys so much. it's been a lot of fun here for the past two years c':
I'll see you on tumblr ^^
kat
mikssi