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The past few days have been different. It seems i want the day to end quicker, or just move out the same place.
I could careless whats going on in my life right now, the only thing i seem to care about anymore is school. School, eating, and sleeping. There's just nothing else for me to do. Nothing exciting or enjoying happens through out the day, then again i'm not expecting much.
I want to audition for a play right now. Even though there isn't one going on, but still i want to be in one.
So i didn't go to the Neon Dance for a couple of reasons:
1. Ricky was sick.
2. I didn't want to just go by myself and spend $8 on a dance that i won't dance at.
3. School work comes first.
Heather was pretty pissed that i didn't go. I felt bad but i've felt bad for everything for the past month or two. When i think things are going to work out in my favor they don't. Instead it gets worse and mounds a whole bunch of pressure on me and along with the pressure of school and getting good grades. I don't have time for things anymore.
How can even think of anything else? Let alone a relationship. I wonder how people even function during high school, when they have some person linked around them, being close and clingy. Gah. I would say "Please get off of me, i need to do this, 'kay?" I mean sure i wouldn't mind having a boyfriend but for now i rather not have the stress and the stress of the other person. So screw relationships, they only get in the way.
I'm really hungry *cries* But i don't want to eat. I don't want to eat.
I don't want to do anything.
I could careless whats going on in my life right now, the only thing i seem to care about anymore is school. School, eating, and sleeping. There's just nothing else for me to do. Nothing exciting or enjoying happens through out the day, then again i'm not expecting much.
I want to audition for a play right now. Even though there isn't one going on, but still i want to be in one.
So i didn't go to the Neon Dance for a couple of reasons:
1. Ricky was sick.
2. I didn't want to just go by myself and spend $8 on a dance that i won't dance at.
3. School work comes first.
Heather was pretty pissed that i didn't go. I felt bad but i've felt bad for everything for the past month or two. When i think things are going to work out in my favor they don't. Instead it gets worse and mounds a whole bunch of pressure on me and along with the pressure of school and getting good grades. I don't have time for things anymore.
How can even think of anything else? Let alone a relationship. I wonder how people even function during high school, when they have some person linked around them, being close and clingy. Gah. I would say "Please get off of me, i need to do this, 'kay?" I mean sure i wouldn't mind having a boyfriend but for now i rather not have the stress and the stress of the other person. So screw relationships, they only get in the way.
I'm really hungry *cries* But i don't want to eat. I don't want to eat.
I don't want to do anything.