About the last post
I had copied and pasted something in there that I had from a long time ago. And apparently just only the letter W wanted to show up. It wasn't anything major. It was just what I thought of at the time. I may post it later. I am not quite sure.
Anyways.....
This week was definitely an interesting one. Well mainly Tuesday. I went out to the bar like most Tuesdays. I went out for my friend, SHylah's, last day at the mart and for Valerie's Birthday. I had an ok time hanging out with those from the mart. But I was so tired after an hr there that I was getting ready to leave. That was until I saw Val. So I went over and gave her a hug and kiss and we started to dance. My goal was just to dance a song or two with her say good bye and then say bye to my friends so I could go home and last minute cram for my test I had on Wednesday. That didn't happen. I wasn't drunk so I was perfectly capable of making decisions.
When I was dancing with Val this guy comes outta no where and starts dancing near us. It is Val's friend Christian. So we all kinda dance together/ near each other. A few times though I though I felt a hand on my hand or back. I didn't think anything of it much. I just thought it was Val. I felt a hand on my back and it stayed there for a bit. It wasn't Val. So what did I do? I put one arm around Val and the other around Christian. So I danced with them for a while. Then I was paired back up with Val while Christian danced with his friend near us. He would dance near Val and reach for my hands and place them on his hips or chest. So I was dancing with them again. After a while Val steps outta the way and it was just me and Christian. For the first time ever I danced with another boy in a STRAIGHT bar. Very gutsy for me. And a lot of people know me for not doing that. Then they started to play slow songs and we go off the dance floor. Val goes and dances with other people and Christian and I go off to the side and just stand next to each other and try to talk. It was still loud in the bar with the music. I got his number. And he kinda held hands for a bit. At one point, he leaned in and kissed me. Which is another first for me. After the kiss we still hung out til the last song and then I said good bye to Val and Christian. Meanwhile, when I was saying bye, I felt like I was getting dirty looks. Just from one guy who I think was another mo. Oh well I can't remember his name cuz he said hi to me in a bitchy way. It must not have been important then. Once the high wore off, I was like shit! I am gonna get my ass kicked cuz I danced with a boy and kissed him or that someone was gonna scream out Faggot. No one did. Which surprised the hell outta me like whoa! But I guess Mt. Mullet isn't as closed minded like I thought. I mean it still is, just not that much.
I say bye and go talk to Missy and Shylah. We hung around for a while at the bar still then I went home. At home I IMed Val and talked to her online and on the phone. She put Christian on the phone so I talk to him for a bit, and then he IMed me through her sn and we talked a bit more. Val and Christian invite me to Val's party on Friday. Even though I work that night, I still think I am going to go. Normally I don't do well at parties. Especially with people I don't know. However I think I am gonna go.
I'm not a lil "girl" anymore. I definitely didn't give a fuck on what happened at the bar. And I realize that I shouldn't. But I am not gonna lie, I know I will hav ethe thoughts now and then. But for now.....
I like it.
Anyways.....
This week was definitely an interesting one. Well mainly Tuesday. I went out to the bar like most Tuesdays. I went out for my friend, SHylah's, last day at the mart and for Valerie's Birthday. I had an ok time hanging out with those from the mart. But I was so tired after an hr there that I was getting ready to leave. That was until I saw Val. So I went over and gave her a hug and kiss and we started to dance. My goal was just to dance a song or two with her say good bye and then say bye to my friends so I could go home and last minute cram for my test I had on Wednesday. That didn't happen. I wasn't drunk so I was perfectly capable of making decisions.
When I was dancing with Val this guy comes outta no where and starts dancing near us. It is Val's friend Christian. So we all kinda dance together/ near each other. A few times though I though I felt a hand on my hand or back. I didn't think anything of it much. I just thought it was Val. I felt a hand on my back and it stayed there for a bit. It wasn't Val. So what did I do? I put one arm around Val and the other around Christian. So I danced with them for a while. Then I was paired back up with Val while Christian danced with his friend near us. He would dance near Val and reach for my hands and place them on his hips or chest. So I was dancing with them again. After a while Val steps outta the way and it was just me and Christian. For the first time ever I danced with another boy in a STRAIGHT bar. Very gutsy for me. And a lot of people know me for not doing that. Then they started to play slow songs and we go off the dance floor. Val goes and dances with other people and Christian and I go off to the side and just stand next to each other and try to talk. It was still loud in the bar with the music. I got his number. And he kinda held hands for a bit. At one point, he leaned in and kissed me. Which is another first for me. After the kiss we still hung out til the last song and then I said good bye to Val and Christian. Meanwhile, when I was saying bye, I felt like I was getting dirty looks. Just from one guy who I think was another mo. Oh well I can't remember his name cuz he said hi to me in a bitchy way. It must not have been important then. Once the high wore off, I was like shit! I am gonna get my ass kicked cuz I danced with a boy and kissed him or that someone was gonna scream out Faggot. No one did. Which surprised the hell outta me like whoa! But I guess Mt. Mullet isn't as closed minded like I thought. I mean it still is, just not that much.
I say bye and go talk to Missy and Shylah. We hung around for a while at the bar still then I went home. At home I IMed Val and talked to her online and on the phone. She put Christian on the phone so I talk to him for a bit, and then he IMed me through her sn and we talked a bit more. Val and Christian invite me to Val's party on Friday. Even though I work that night, I still think I am going to go. Normally I don't do well at parties. Especially with people I don't know. However I think I am gonna go.
I'm not a lil "girl" anymore. I definitely didn't give a fuck on what happened at the bar. And I realize that I shouldn't. But I am not gonna lie, I know I will hav ethe thoughts now and then. But for now.....
I like it.