You know, I think it's mostly me not being able to write about the show anymore... Fanfic has always been a way for me to channel my frustration and find at least something I could still like about it. And with that apparently gone (though I'm hoping this is a temporary issue and not a permanent one) there's this feeling of... finally coming to an end with the show...
I love the point you made about the reason behind killing off John Winchester and how far they've come from their original "it's about family" coda. It makes me very sad to see the shadow of the show I used to love now.
For me it's not even the shadow of a show I used to love, for me the idea behind the show is gone. As are Sam and Dean.
Don't get me wrong, I'm... kind of happy that people can still enjoy it (though it breaks my heart to hear that there's apparently more people concerned about Cas' fate than there are people who still want the brothers together and have *not* taken a side for either character), but I'm not really sure which show they are watching. But, well, everybody's entitled to their own opinion.
I want to write. I really, really do.
I'm always here to chat if you start to get frustrated. :)
That's the one thing I will *never* regret about this show, all those really, really awesome and friendly people I've met because of it! *hugs* Thank you so much, that means a lot! And I guess I will take you up on this! :)
I guess I've just felt this way for about 3 years now so I got used to avoiding fanfic that obsessed about Castiel and Angel stuff. It IS really hard, it's always hard to let go of something that you feel so attached to. And I did really feel attached to Supernatural. It was like the perfect show to me, I loved the brothers so much. I got all my friends to watch and love it with me and when it took its turn making the brothers hate each other and fight each other I started to complain and everyone told me to stop being so negative. That you weren't a fan unless you worshipped everything about a show. That was hard for me to take b/c I think being critical of anything is super important (not negative but critical) and it became this thing of "oh don't talk to Jenn about Supernatural, she's gets all crazy and bitchy" which was like, WHAT SHOW ARE YOU WATCHING?! Eh sorry about the rant there but yes, I completely agree. It really ruined my want to write fic too but it did come back for me (I just created my own SPN world where the brothers were still BROTHERS) so hopefully it'll come back for you too.
Sorry that was a long rant just to make the point that your writing mojo should come back. I certainly hope it does! :)
With me it was actually the other way around, a friend of mine got me into the show. She gave me season 1-3 when I was sick and had nothing to do for a weekend and I popped in whichever episode sounded good to me and watched. And fell in love. And then I watched the whole show again, in the right order this time, and fell in love again. Because, even though there were ghosts and werewolves and witches and ghouls and zombies, the show was so down to earth, Sam and Dean felt like normal guys with normal... well, almost normal problems.
Then I went to watching it live starting with season 4... and all that vanished, with every episode it got more painful to watch. And, you know, I tried talking to my best friend about it and that kind of backfired at me cause she saw things completely differently than I did and the show pretty fast became something we'd rather not talk about anymore cause we would only make each other angry. She never really understood what exactly I didn't like on the show and she never really got why, even though I kept complainin about it, I never quit it. Back then I was still hoping they'd turn it around, and, as Sam said, "hope is kind of the whole point" I just couldn't let it go. (Still not sure I can now, btw...)
And yeah, after watching s5 and the season finale (and I have to admit I even liked it, I was *happy* that Sam was finally the hero who had saved everyone and I would have LOVED to have it stop there) I was relieved it would be over and I could move on. And I did what you did, I created my own little SPN world where I would ignore 4/5 mostly and I was fine with that.
Well, yeah, then s6 happened... and you know the rest.
And where the hell is the point I was trying to make? I guess I wanted to say that yes, I do know the feeling of not being able to talk about what you really think because all you get as an answer is "if you hate it so much, why do you keep watching" when all you are trying to do is desperately find something to still love about the show to *not* have to drop it.
Sorry that was a long rant just to make the point that your writing mojo should come back. I certainly hope it does! :)
Me, too, I really, *really* want to finish the stories and do all the stuff I had planned with the AU of the Big Bang and all the other ideas I have... I'm thinking about sitting down and just trying to write what's at the top of my head and just be surprised about what might come out of that... I don't know...
I love the point you made about the reason behind killing off John Winchester and how far they've come from their original "it's about family" coda. It makes me very sad to see the shadow of the show I used to love now.
For me it's not even the shadow of a show I used to love, for me the idea behind the show is gone. As are Sam and Dean.
Don't get me wrong, I'm... kind of happy that people can still enjoy it (though it breaks my heart to hear that there's apparently more people concerned about Cas' fate than there are people who still want the brothers together and have *not* taken a side for either character), but I'm not really sure which show they are watching. But, well, everybody's entitled to their own opinion.
I want to write. I really, really do.
I'm always here to chat if you start to get frustrated. :)
That's the one thing I will *never* regret about this show, all those really, really awesome and friendly people I've met because of it! *hugs* Thank you so much, that means a lot! And I guess I will take you up on this! :)
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Sorry that was a long rant just to make the point that your writing mojo should come back. I certainly hope it does! :)
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Then I went to watching it live starting with season 4... and all that vanished, with every episode it got more painful to watch. And, you know, I tried talking to my best friend about it and that kind of backfired at me cause she saw things completely differently than I did and the show pretty fast became something we'd rather not talk about anymore cause we would only make each other angry. She never really understood what exactly I didn't like on the show and she never really got why, even though I kept complainin about it, I never quit it. Back then I was still hoping they'd turn it around, and, as Sam said, "hope is kind of the whole point" I just couldn't let it go. (Still not sure I can now, btw...)
And yeah, after watching s5 and the season finale (and I have to admit I even liked it, I was *happy* that Sam was finally the hero who had saved everyone and I would have LOVED to have it stop there) I was relieved it would be over and I could move on. And I did what you did, I created my own little SPN world where I would ignore 4/5 mostly and I was fine with that.
Well, yeah, then s6 happened... and you know the rest.
And where the hell is the point I was trying to make? I guess I wanted to say that yes, I do know the feeling of not being able to talk about what you really think because all you get as an answer is "if you hate it so much, why do you keep watching" when all you are trying to do is desperately find something to still love about the show to *not* have to drop it.
Sorry that was a long rant just to make the point that your writing mojo should come back. I certainly hope it does! :)
Me, too, I really, *really* want to finish the stories and do all the stuff I had planned with the AU of the Big Bang and all the other ideas I have... I'm thinking about sitting down and just trying to write what's at the top of my head and just be surprised about what might come out of that... I don't know...
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