fic: There and never back again -- Summer of Sam Love exchange
A/N: This was written for this year's summer_sam_love - exchange for beamin_sunshine . Her prompt can be found at the end of the story. I hope this comes close to what you wanted for the prompt, I did the best I could, even though it might have turned out a little darker than I had planned originally. Have fun reading! :)
( There and never back again )
( There and never back again )
Definitely darker than I'd expected - but I absolutely ADORE what direction you took mah prompt in. I love the idea of Sam hallucinating Adam, imagining that Adam's happy and concerned for him, to block out the reality that Lucifer and Michael... killed his soul and ate it. << Nice imagery there, btw. Have to say, I never thought of THAT, lol.
- "It’s his brother’s face, the one he’s left behind in the cage. The one he knows longer than anyone else in the entire world. The one he’s spent countless eternities with, the man he knows inside and out, in more than one sense of the word. He’s seen sides of his brother no one is supposed to see and they’ve come closer than he’s ever been with anyone else." ~ !!! MY EXACT THOUGHTS. I feel like I'm cheating on Sam&Dean when I think about Sam feeling closer to Adam (I always view them as a packaged deal), but come on. There's no way they couldn't come to know each other better than they've ever known anyone after centuries of having nothing but each other.
- "He knows, he knows if he looks up, now, it won’t be Adam looking back at him. It won’t be his little brother that the hallucination looks like. And he can’t do this, he can’t look up, he can’t bear to see him looking back, eyes full of familiar and yet long-absent concern, genuine worry, affection-everything he’s missing so much it makes him physically sick just thinking about it-" ~ OH SAMMY. *pets his hair* Stupid Dean. My only regret is how far apart the boys are... I hate to see them like that. But it fits here, and I'm glad you included it.
The ending lines really packed a punch as well. It's one of those stories that kind of haunt you - leave you a little speechless and make you want to wrap - in this case - Sam into a giant hug and tell him everything'll be okay. Even if the whole mood of this fic is that it won't be.
THANK YOU. I loved it!
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God, I'm so happy it wasn't too dark for you. I was so worried that maybe it would be too much hurt with little to none comfort for poor Sam. It wasn't easy to write at times, the worst parts, for me, were Sam realizing that his and Dean's relationship is more or less non-existent and that he's basically alone.
(I always view them as a packaged deal)
Me too, there is no Dean without a Sam. And vice versa.
Stupid Dean. My only regret is how far apart the boys are... I hate to see them like that.
See, that's the reason why I can't watch the show anymore, why I don't really like working on anything involving season 6 and why I more or less quit the show for good. I want Sam and Dean as brothers, that's the reason I fell in love with them in the first place.
Still, I'm happy I had the chance to write this, it helped me see a different side of the story and reminded me again and again what I love most about the show.
About the ending, I was thinking of including a talk between Sam and Dean at the end, where Sam would have told Dean about "Adam", to have at least some sort of comfort for Sam, but I couldn't make it work.
I'm so, so happy you liked it! Thank you for that very interesting prompt!! :)
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