I am really wanting to speak Spanish fluently!
I feel like i am the one that is chasing or something?!! but im so not! my motivations and wants are really trying to distance myself from even the thought of that!!
Its just situations arise which put me in the predicament of going to his house, calling him... Matty G thought it was a sign of my affections, the fact that i am over all the time etc... and in some way, it probably is a sign of that, but in another way, its not.
whoa!! he just came online and i physically got startled! not scared, nonono...just the fact that my mind was deep in thought over this matter (which i think the dwelling of my mind is unsafe...i guess that is why i am writing it all down..) and i kinda came on here in the 1st instance curious to see whether he would come online or would be online...its foolishness i know..but im honest about it.
I guess i really love being in his company but am really wanting him to seek after that.. i mean, not that i want him to depend and need my company, eww that would make me feel uncomfortable! and its not like that with me! but him to make the call or have to come to my house. but i guess its good cause i get the chance to escape out of my house and i love their place. I love their place so much. good company, the whole family! I think thats a big reason why i am there so much! the simple reason of the Jeffs themselves.
Love love Love to them!!
I love going over there and finding Cedar sitting on the couch! and thats where i always see her as well!! teehee!! on the cough looking a little sleepy and relaxed! i get such peace!!
I love her so much!
i am going to bed after some prayer, abit of exercise, and reading some word!
oh and i never did go to the gym. tomorrow maybe..but i will have my surf board back!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaahhhhhhhh!
~miki
Its just situations arise which put me in the predicament of going to his house, calling him... Matty G thought it was a sign of my affections, the fact that i am over all the time etc... and in some way, it probably is a sign of that, but in another way, its not.
whoa!! he just came online and i physically got startled! not scared, nonono...just the fact that my mind was deep in thought over this matter (which i think the dwelling of my mind is unsafe...i guess that is why i am writing it all down..) and i kinda came on here in the 1st instance curious to see whether he would come online or would be online...its foolishness i know..but im honest about it.
I guess i really love being in his company but am really wanting him to seek after that.. i mean, not that i want him to depend and need my company, eww that would make me feel uncomfortable! and its not like that with me! but him to make the call or have to come to my house. but i guess its good cause i get the chance to escape out of my house and i love their place. I love their place so much. good company, the whole family! I think thats a big reason why i am there so much! the simple reason of the Jeffs themselves.
Love love Love to them!!
I love going over there and finding Cedar sitting on the couch! and thats where i always see her as well!! teehee!! on the cough looking a little sleepy and relaxed! i get such peace!!
I love her so much!
i am going to bed after some prayer, abit of exercise, and reading some word!
oh and i never did go to the gym. tomorrow maybe..but i will have my surf board back!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaahhhhhhhh!
~miki