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Reality is setting in, I prefer living in my head. He is the only thing keeping me hanging on lately and that is not a good thing. I lived in denial that coming out didnt change anything but as I sit here alone with no one to call, no where to go and nothing but schoolwork to make me feel like Im not a total waste reality sets in. Coming out I lost a lot of friends and right now I feel like he is all I have and thats scary cause I do not want to smother him. I feel so lonely :(