Epiphany
Well, I had my aha moment last week. I'm leaving Boston next year. I have a lot of work to do in order to do that, but I trust God and I'm eager to do it. I'm researching and going to apply to schools in California for a Master of Arts in Lay Ministry/Catholic Pastoral Theology program. I could push for the STL program which is the Sacred Theology Licentiate teaching degree but I think I want to work specifically on a ministry focused degree first.
I have to start living my dreams. I want to feel like an adult. I want to take care of myself more than my family. I don't think that's selfish. I've lived at home for 6 years and I have had enough of everyone here. There is no growth here, spiritual or anyway otherwise. I need a chance to spread my wings and get away.
I want to be a Campus Minister. I want to be a writer. I want to be a religious teacher some day. And, I can't do that here the way things are now. I'm not meant to be a nine to fiver locked in behind a desk. I'm meant to serve God with my life and I need to do that.
I have a lot of random things to do before then. Take the GRE again. Apply and get in to the right program. Get my teacher's recommendations and support from leaders around here. Get and stay plugged into Catholic programs for young people around here until I leave. The aim is to start in January. I need to get rid of or find a place to store 80% of my stuff. I'm only taking clothes, my laptop and some books with me when I go. Nothing that is going to be too much is coming with me.
So, I'm going to run away, but at least I have a specific plan now to make it work.
Another thing, I am applying to Boston College's ministry program as more of a safety option than any kind of certainty. I don't want to go there, but it will make my parents happy if I apply. Of course they don't know anything about any of this and they won't until it's decided.
If my car is still running okay then I am giving it away to somebody, probably Kristin my best friend.
A big thing: I need to be content with my 8 and a half months left here in Quincy. I need to find a full-time temporary job so that I have some money saved for when I leave. I have savings bonds to help, but I will need more I know. I'm excited for next year. Now, I just need to be excited about this year.
I have to start living my dreams. I want to feel like an adult. I want to take care of myself more than my family. I don't think that's selfish. I've lived at home for 6 years and I have had enough of everyone here. There is no growth here, spiritual or anyway otherwise. I need a chance to spread my wings and get away.
I want to be a Campus Minister. I want to be a writer. I want to be a religious teacher some day. And, I can't do that here the way things are now. I'm not meant to be a nine to fiver locked in behind a desk. I'm meant to serve God with my life and I need to do that.
I have a lot of random things to do before then. Take the GRE again. Apply and get in to the right program. Get my teacher's recommendations and support from leaders around here. Get and stay plugged into Catholic programs for young people around here until I leave. The aim is to start in January. I need to get rid of or find a place to store 80% of my stuff. I'm only taking clothes, my laptop and some books with me when I go. Nothing that is going to be too much is coming with me.
So, I'm going to run away, but at least I have a specific plan now to make it work.
Another thing, I am applying to Boston College's ministry program as more of a safety option than any kind of certainty. I don't want to go there, but it will make my parents happy if I apply. Of course they don't know anything about any of this and they won't until it's decided.
If my car is still running okay then I am giving it away to somebody, probably Kristin my best friend.
A big thing: I need to be content with my 8 and a half months left here in Quincy. I need to find a full-time temporary job so that I have some money saved for when I leave. I have savings bonds to help, but I will need more I know. I'm excited for next year. Now, I just need to be excited about this year.