feeling awkward...
Haven't posted for a while for good reason. I've been busy and it's hard for me to even think about internet anything because lets face it, this place isn't real. And I've been hit with alot of reality recently. I DO NOT WANT SYMPATHY. I want to be with my family. I feel like I could be doing something very productive and meaningful and ultimately quite important right now, but I'm stuck in Virginia. I know that life goes on but I don't want it to go this way. This changes everything as far as how I feel and my general direction and such, but unfortunately this changes nothing about my habitual person and my physical direction. And this frustrates me. Adapt and overcome is what they teach us. I feel like I'm being forced to sit helplessly.