puhleeze?

[mikeyl]

why oh why must they torture me so? three weeks ago today i mailed the last of my portfolio materials to graduate school. they told me yesterday that it usually takes around three weeks before i hear a decision. so any day now. aggh. it's like the week before christmas. won't it hurry up and get here already! though, if it's bad news, it can just wait. but if it's a yay instead of a nay, then bring it on. i need the good news. though, i suppose i should be formulating some sort of backup plan right? as of now, i have not done this. im faithfully believing that my meant-to-be next step is graduate school in savannah. lordy. suspense sucks. though, i have to say, once i hear a positive answer (note the positive thinking), things will have to happen very quickly. i'll have to go down, find a place to live. make all those arrangements. get all the utilities and stuff taken care of. rent a truck. pack my stuff. unload my storage building. move. etc etc. all this while ducking and dodging upcoming holiday events/stress/time problems. lalalalala. bring it on! im down with pressure. im just not down with rejection. ive had enough of that in my life lately, thanks. oh la la la look at me, im dark and angst-filled. hahah. ok. so anyway, anyone out there accidentally reading this drivel...drivel? drivel....feel free to say a prayer...make a wish...say a chant...light a candle...sacrafice a whatever...whatever it is you and yours do when you want something to happen. im guessing monday will be the day. perhaps they decided to wait to deliver bad news on a monday, when it would hurt less...rather than a friday to ruin my weekend? yech. i hope that's not it. hello..overactive imagination, please stop working. nitey nite. -m
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