Jan 10, 2004 12:42
so finals next week...woopie, woopie my arss. i have to read a 500 page book, learn chouir music, memorize a song fo operetta, do my spanish TEATRO project, agh, study fo finals, aaaaaaaaaaaaaah. why do i procrastinate so much; why why why?????? and ontop of that, i have to pick my song fo the "multicultural history parade" and pick my song and get with my sponsor guy for the ACT-SO COMP (ya'll should enter that). all this stress.
i feel so gjreuhgijerhbiouth90erjeor0. i think i'm going, or been going through a transition or something. i hope so cuz this isn't all peaches and cream. i feel like different...i dunno. why can't i be someone else. of course, i'm sure there are many people that prolly think this. well, i'm not spillin ALL my guts, not yet.
i should write a book (random. for one think, i think waaaaaaay too much, or maybe not enough. well anyway, controdicting my statements, somethimes wheni think about myself, my mind, i feel really interesting, hmmmm. i think that i'm probably or have the potential to be really smart, but i'm too lazy, right now anyway. i don't mean OH I FOUND THE CURE TO AIDS or LOOK, I'M ALBERT EINSTEIN, THE BLACK ONE. i guess i mean, like a different kind of smart. hmmm, it's fun writing intelectualy. back to the book subject, sometimes i think of something and say' that would sound really good in a book'. maybe a book of DEEP poems. either people would understand and be like WOW, HE'S GREAT! or they'd be UM, WHAT IS HE TALKING ABOUT? maybe, i'm afraid of failure in ways. hmm i know if u readin this, u prolly like, 'what, michael?' it's ok, i don't even understand it.
so i was watching West Side Story on TCM. it's like natalie wood night or something. they might of, but i might have missed it; Splender in the Grass. i like that one. anyway so they said the next movie with her in it would be REBEL WOITH OUT A CAUSE w/ james dean. it's like the ist "teen" movie or something. it's really good, maybe now one of my favorites. so the host, when the movie was ova, was talkni about james dean and the movie EAST OF EADEN. i know it's a book, which i wanna read, but i didn't kno it was a movie. i think i'll rent that.
i need to lose weigt.(random)
that producer's card that kathy and i had gotten from Juneteenth last june has been in my wallet and stil is. i should call him. i'm sure it prolly pne of those "studios"; u know, the ones that are like underground i guess you could say. anyway, singing, ya... my voice is improving; DAHLKE (lol, raquel) 's class has helped me, i've learned how to not strain my voice as much and stil have a good sound. it such a Dahlke thing to say, but i think he was bein sincere when on Wed. i practiced w/ him for my song fo operetta and when we were done, he was like "There's something real SWEET about your face" i was like...thanks. lol, so that's cool. that reminds me of sopfmore year, i sang in his class and he was like, "oh, we ahve the next American Idol."it feels weird when people say i have a nice voice. not weird, but different. like that same year, we were practining for our 1st recital, and PETE said i have a real nice voice. i was like...um, thanks? ya, he DOES have the beat.
well i'm off. PEACE
p.s. wow, all that felt good.