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So as of late a lot of things have been going on; first off I got a nice interesting story told to by one of my friends, and it just so happened to involve me. Turns out the guy I was dating had been having sex with the guy he was dating, and lying about it. Nice...gladly I had broken up with the guy two weeks prior but still it was very shitty and I had to deal with my friend who's boyfriend had been having sex with my ex. That was an interesting day indeed, I spent most of the day with him trying to figure out and match up stories as to just what had gone on. In the end he found out a lot of things he never knew about his boyfriend, and how he had been running around on him. Regardless I was there for him and now nearly two weeks later every now and then he still needs a little grounding from time to time, but I know he will turn out on top. All in all, this mess turned out to strengthen the relationship we have as friends, so that's nice, not to mention the fact that one of our friends is now dealing with lymphoma, and will start treatment soon, so we're all trying to be strong for him, he's only 21...and was going to UT.
School lately has been tough, getting tougher, but that's as expected, I'm constantly busy with school and for once I'm excited about what I'm doing, minus my Spanish and history course which are requirements to graduate, so they suck. My upper divisions are great, they keep me involved and paying attention, no time to wander. I spend most of my time in front of an EIS Lab computer building maps for a class, let me tell you, maps are not easy to create, well your more in depth information heavy maps. This week I have to create a 3D map of West Austin terrain to show suitable sites for building, and I have to use mathematics to chose my sites. I started a little on Friday and thus far it's slightly difficult so I can expect a high stress level this week, so no good. I also have to read about 12 or 13 chapters for that class for a test next Monday, so that should be a large part of this week, I can for see many nights at the library to get it all done. I need all the karma I can get. Not to mention I have to do some graduate school preparations this week, lots of research and meetings to attend and I'm still very far away from it, but I guess that's just life.
Work has been going great, I love the new job I have. Home Depot has been such a better experience than Toy's ever was, and the people are so much more fun and grown up. Being a specialist as opposed to a regular associate has its benefits as well, I don't have to run around every where looking to help people, I wait for them to come to me, it's so nice. Not to mention, I've learned so much more about major appliances than I ever knew, and I'm almost forced to just to do a good job so it's interesting to learn something new. I'm averaging between 5-10 thousand in sales a week for just 30 hours a week, so that's nice I don't have to worry about managers being on my back to make sales. Only thing is, I don't work on commission which has its pros and cons, but I'm happy so far.
Looking back to what I was first talking about, I seem to have lost something emotionally inside, as of late I feel as though I am numb to everything, I lack emotion and nothing seems to move me inside. I guess I'm subconsciously shutting down to block everything out, almost as if I don't want to be hurt, I amazingly had little reaction to the news of what was going on behind my back it just seemed all to ironic that it was happening, and I only the next day became a little angry, but it faded. I've no desire to be with anyone either, I don't care to try for a relationship nor is messing around or dating around appealing either, it just seems repulsive and will only take away precious time I need for school. I did for for a year and a half before all this I can do it again for awhile, I could use the time for school. These last few semesters are VERY important for getting into graduate school so I do need to focus. Anyway, this is the longest I've typed here in awhile so I think I'm done for now.
-MJ
School lately has been tough, getting tougher, but that's as expected, I'm constantly busy with school and for once I'm excited about what I'm doing, minus my Spanish and history course which are requirements to graduate, so they suck. My upper divisions are great, they keep me involved and paying attention, no time to wander. I spend most of my time in front of an EIS Lab computer building maps for a class, let me tell you, maps are not easy to create, well your more in depth information heavy maps. This week I have to create a 3D map of West Austin terrain to show suitable sites for building, and I have to use mathematics to chose my sites. I started a little on Friday and thus far it's slightly difficult so I can expect a high stress level this week, so no good. I also have to read about 12 or 13 chapters for that class for a test next Monday, so that should be a large part of this week, I can for see many nights at the library to get it all done. I need all the karma I can get. Not to mention I have to do some graduate school preparations this week, lots of research and meetings to attend and I'm still very far away from it, but I guess that's just life.
Work has been going great, I love the new job I have. Home Depot has been such a better experience than Toy's ever was, and the people are so much more fun and grown up. Being a specialist as opposed to a regular associate has its benefits as well, I don't have to run around every where looking to help people, I wait for them to come to me, it's so nice. Not to mention, I've learned so much more about major appliances than I ever knew, and I'm almost forced to just to do a good job so it's interesting to learn something new. I'm averaging between 5-10 thousand in sales a week for just 30 hours a week, so that's nice I don't have to worry about managers being on my back to make sales. Only thing is, I don't work on commission which has its pros and cons, but I'm happy so far.
Looking back to what I was first talking about, I seem to have lost something emotionally inside, as of late I feel as though I am numb to everything, I lack emotion and nothing seems to move me inside. I guess I'm subconsciously shutting down to block everything out, almost as if I don't want to be hurt, I amazingly had little reaction to the news of what was going on behind my back it just seemed all to ironic that it was happening, and I only the next day became a little angry, but it faded. I've no desire to be with anyone either, I don't care to try for a relationship nor is messing around or dating around appealing either, it just seems repulsive and will only take away precious time I need for school. I did for for a year and a half before all this I can do it again for awhile, I could use the time for school. These last few semesters are VERY important for getting into graduate school so I do need to focus. Anyway, this is the longest I've typed here in awhile so I think I'm done for now.
-MJ