May 18, 2007 05:02
i made it on an aquabats tribute album
i remember when tyler bayless introduced me to that band when i was a sophmore in high school
i loved them
i immediately wanted to start a sweet band and hit it big
it gets released this summer
so thats exciting
i dunno
i lost my best friend this month
i dont even know what i did to him he just
bailed
i hate it
i wish i had the guts to just call him or something but i have nothing i can do
i lost yuki too
she told me she hated me forever
and blocked me on every form of anything i can do get in touch with her
i suppose i could mail her a letter
you know if i could afford to eat
i wish i could rewind to like 3 weeks ago and just say the right thing
i tried for so long and it obviously didnt work if she's gone
neither of them are even gone in a erica is pissed off after reading this sort of way
or even in a my one five knows everything about me and posts a witty comment here sort of way
im so lost
at one time i thought i had life figured out
next thing i know im introducing girls to my parents who claim their son has a future bride
or trying to help out a friend that maybe is unhappy
or something
i really dont know where to come here from me
most dipshits i know fuck up shit with a significant other or a band or a best friend
and they just start talking about moving to some more populated city
there is no place i can go that will stop me from thinking about all of these problems every moment i wake up
or go to sleep
or in between
i'm supposed to record a cd in july
its very exciting
fulfilling for me and my best friends that have been sucking in a band for however many years
but i dont really see any reason to do it anymore if i'm not sending the reference copy to my best friends jeep so we can overanalyze it for a month and make cover art that will sell
and i dont see any reason being on a japanese label if the only japanese person ive been trying to communicate with has blocked every chance for me to redeem myself
or atleast know shes alive and well.
i started school of rock this week
those kids have so many high hopes
they wanna start a sweet band and hit it big
i appreciate it alot but like
dont start a band
be a zero and go to college
and meet some person that isnt as attractive as your ideal girlfriend
because our minds are all warped
and you will be laying in your grave alone in the end anyways.
so just make as much stupid money as you can to drink your life away with until that time comes.