May 10, 2005 01:42
Everything has been so confusing lately, I'm not exactly sure how Debbie is going to be towards me. At all. We've spoken a few times since everything, but then, she also wont return a text message, for my phone calls too. Like, is she mad at me, or is she just annoyed by me? I'm going nuts here.
The past two days I've just been at work, thinking about her, and it's not stopping. I have this sunken feeling in my chest like crazy. I want to prove to her that I do care about her, and how dumb it would be to just throw everything away. I cant blame her for having concern, but I wish she would have just come to me first.. I would have done everything in my power to make her feel better.
If I ever hurt her feelings, it wasnt intentional, at all. I loved seeing her smile, which is why I would always try and surprise her with things. I used to talk to this girl for hours every night. Once we even talked until 7 in the morning.. Now for some reason, I'm lucky to get to talk to her at all.
I dont think I've ever missed actually talking to a girl this much.. Or kissing a girl this much. Dude, The Temptations.
-Mikey