Here I Am
So it's another year, 2011.
I am amazed that I am still here - 49, alive, in pretty good health, loved and liked. So I am lucky. I live in a first-world country with free healthcare and funcitoning infrastructure. I am lucky. I don't have much money - and I'm not sure what will happen to me employment-wise, but I still think I'm lucky.
Last year was a mixed bag. Financially it was the worst since I started work again - I have to change that this year. Work-wise, I enjoyed it, but am increasingly unsure that I want to be an academic after I complete this PhD. But I will complete it.
Emotionally - I didn't meet the man of my dreams, but I've been in an interesting and fulfilling *cough* relationship with a couple that has become stronger and deeper. It works for me.
I haven't had a cigarette since April, and I don't want them anymore - don't even think about them when I'm out on the town.
I still have a tendency to go out and party too much - as long as I enjoy it though, it's not really too much, is it?
I will be 50 this year - when I was diagnosed with HIV in 1988, at 27, I was told I probably had one or two more years to live. In 1995 I was told I probably had one year to live. Ha ha ha !
Life is for living - life can be hard - but overall, life is pretty damn good.
I am amazed that I am still here - 49, alive, in pretty good health, loved and liked. So I am lucky. I live in a first-world country with free healthcare and funcitoning infrastructure. I am lucky. I don't have much money - and I'm not sure what will happen to me employment-wise, but I still think I'm lucky.
Last year was a mixed bag. Financially it was the worst since I started work again - I have to change that this year. Work-wise, I enjoyed it, but am increasingly unsure that I want to be an academic after I complete this PhD. But I will complete it.
Emotionally - I didn't meet the man of my dreams, but I've been in an interesting and fulfilling *cough* relationship with a couple that has become stronger and deeper. It works for me.
I haven't had a cigarette since April, and I don't want them anymore - don't even think about them when I'm out on the town.
I still have a tendency to go out and party too much - as long as I enjoy it though, it's not really too much, is it?
I will be 50 this year - when I was diagnosed with HIV in 1988, at 27, I was told I probably had one or two more years to live. In 1995 I was told I probably had one year to live. Ha ha ha !
Life is for living - life can be hard - but overall, life is pretty damn good.