I want to......
Well it seems I always set myself up for failure. Life has been a bit overwhelming lately. I need a change again, something or someone to knock me around and motivate me again. I have to say that I have really had to deal with some of my dark sides lately. Things I never would have done way back. And I was pretty crazy then. I just hope I’m a good crazy of sorts, or at least something good comes of it.
I have so many music ideas and working on them constantly. I have been isolated and alone lately. Forced to think about myself. I think sometimes people are just time fillers. They just help you be lazy and forget everything.
I do realize I need someone though. I have become depressed and just unhappy. Nothing in my life right now is positive. My job is a joke; some of the people around me are just incredibly uneducated and close-minded. I can’t seem to find what I need in anything.
The band has been doing great. Music is one thing that keeps me going. I honestly don’t know why I don’t just stay there all the time. Those guys are just outstanding and inspiring to me. At times I questioned friendships, but I know they are. We took a month off to write and it’s become to laid back. I miss practicing almost everyday.
I still have some demons/habits to control. But I am trying. I’m trying to get out of this dark spot right now and I know I need to do it. But it will happen.
I have so many music ideas and working on them constantly. I have been isolated and alone lately. Forced to think about myself. I think sometimes people are just time fillers. They just help you be lazy and forget everything.
I do realize I need someone though. I have become depressed and just unhappy. Nothing in my life right now is positive. My job is a joke; some of the people around me are just incredibly uneducated and close-minded. I can’t seem to find what I need in anything.
The band has been doing great. Music is one thing that keeps me going. I honestly don’t know why I don’t just stay there all the time. Those guys are just outstanding and inspiring to me. At times I questioned friendships, but I know they are. We took a month off to write and it’s become to laid back. I miss practicing almost everyday.
I still have some demons/habits to control. But I am trying. I’m trying to get out of this dark spot right now and I know I need to do it. But it will happen.