two days down ... how many more to go?
So I've started my new job and am two days into it - well, precisely 13.5 hours into it thanks to a welcome late start on Monday. And what's my verdict?
Ermmmmmm .... yeah, s'ok.
I don't really know how to describe what I'm feeling at the moment, much of what I'm going through at the moment is feeling a little lost and out of place and not knowing where to turn to for what and to who. It's very disconcerting but more than that, it's very unempowering.
I was afraid this would happen, today on the drive home I was thinking about the ol' company and thinking how things gelled for me back there - I was confident, I knew what I was doing, and I had the authority to kind of mould the department and my job the way I wanted to, at least without recourse for questioning by others.
But then I quickly reminded myself about all the bullshit the company put me through, remembered the reasons I'd resigned, and made sure that any short-term feelings of regret at resigning were pushed quickly out of the fore. Because I'm so happy that I've moved on from that place.
I just want to feel useful again.
Personally, I think you'd love my job, dri. There's plenty of contact with people on the phones, mainly outbound calling, there's plenty of movement as I always have to get up and go across the road to the head office, and today I was in a meeting for 1 1/2 hours listening in to some managers discussing the graphic design of our brochures. Not to mention there's so much admin to get my head around. Plus, my co-worker, the coordinator, and my boss, the manager, are really cool and interesting people with great senses of humour. My manager can stand to be a bit more organised though (apparently that's why they've hired me, the assistant).
Have been pondering to myself the last two days, is this really what I want to do? I used to have a kind of a career path set in mind, I wanted to travel the road of the professional. Now I'm basically in a PA role, managing my manager basically, and I wonder whether I'm cut out for it, to be relied upon so heavily and to use my initiative to solve the little problems. I've given the impression that I'm ultra organised but to be honest, sometimes I'm just as scatterbrained as what my manager appears to be.
All I've been saying to everyone lately is, time will tell. And time will tell. I'm in no mood to give up on something when I haven't even given it a shot. And I can do this, just given time. Do I want to do this? Time will also tell, but I have to give it the time.
I only hope they do the same for me.
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Yay for Casey! OMG, when they read out her name, I got goosebumps all over my body! I was definitely not expecting her to go to the Opera House, let alone have her name get called out first.
Glad hamface got kicked out, even if it meant that plastic boy (or rubbery elf) got through.
Ermmmmmm .... yeah, s'ok.
I don't really know how to describe what I'm feeling at the moment, much of what I'm going through at the moment is feeling a little lost and out of place and not knowing where to turn to for what and to who. It's very disconcerting but more than that, it's very unempowering.
I was afraid this would happen, today on the drive home I was thinking about the ol' company and thinking how things gelled for me back there - I was confident, I knew what I was doing, and I had the authority to kind of mould the department and my job the way I wanted to, at least without recourse for questioning by others.
But then I quickly reminded myself about all the bullshit the company put me through, remembered the reasons I'd resigned, and made sure that any short-term feelings of regret at resigning were pushed quickly out of the fore. Because I'm so happy that I've moved on from that place.
I just want to feel useful again.
Personally, I think you'd love my job, dri. There's plenty of contact with people on the phones, mainly outbound calling, there's plenty of movement as I always have to get up and go across the road to the head office, and today I was in a meeting for 1 1/2 hours listening in to some managers discussing the graphic design of our brochures. Not to mention there's so much admin to get my head around. Plus, my co-worker, the coordinator, and my boss, the manager, are really cool and interesting people with great senses of humour. My manager can stand to be a bit more organised though (apparently that's why they've hired me, the assistant).
Have been pondering to myself the last two days, is this really what I want to do? I used to have a kind of a career path set in mind, I wanted to travel the road of the professional. Now I'm basically in a PA role, managing my manager basically, and I wonder whether I'm cut out for it, to be relied upon so heavily and to use my initiative to solve the little problems. I've given the impression that I'm ultra organised but to be honest, sometimes I'm just as scatterbrained as what my manager appears to be.
All I've been saying to everyone lately is, time will tell. And time will tell. I'm in no mood to give up on something when I haven't even given it a shot. And I can do this, just given time. Do I want to do this? Time will also tell, but I have to give it the time.
I only hope they do the same for me.
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Yay for Casey! OMG, when they read out her name, I got goosebumps all over my body! I was definitely not expecting her to go to the Opera House, let alone have her name get called out first.
Glad hamface got kicked out, even if it meant that plastic boy (or rubbery elf) got through.