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who would have thought i'd be writing in this thing at 6:31 am-lol.
i've had alot on my mind and have failed ever expressing anything.
everything is just so hectic. school. work. classes. there's so much work but i've been keeping up. studying. papers. projects. i can't believe its going by so fast. it's almost halloween and soon it will be thanksgiving and then christmas and first semester of senior will be over.
why does it have to all go by so fast. do you ever feel like your missing something. a part of it. a part of life along the way. i certainly do. i guess i've been busy so much lately that I've kinda lost myself in all my work. i don't know how long its been since i've seen friends from home or even certain people here. i miss them. hopefully i'll see people soon maybe sometime this weekend if i'm lucky.
do you ever feel like the world is going by so fast that you just can't keep up. that's how i feel. at least i think thats how i feel know. who ever really knows how to feel about the future. ive been planning working on my resume but something is still missing. by the time thanksgiving comes will i have something to be thankful for. who really knows.
i remember the first time we did thanksgiving back home at Kristen's house. Me, Randy, Gigs, Kristen, Gum, Julie, Sara and Scott. it's such a vivid memory and why does it have to be. people say change is good for us but i still feel everythings changed so much i've lost myself along the way. i keep remembering beowulf, and macbeth. i remember bowling and late nites at Angie's and fraps with Ashley and whether i like it or not i remember movies with guys at jose's. why did that have to change. i know they say u meet ppl along your path in life that make you who you are today but who am i. the past just makes me regret things, and sad. how do you grow from that. i know its obvious that things like that make you a stronger person. but why couldn't i have all that and still be happy. sometimes i feel like my happiness is just lost amidst all the photographs of captured moments in time. who really knows now.
why can't i truly be happy. why can't things be like they used to be. why do i feel so alone in this world and still have so many people that care. and why are there nites when i feel like this i'll never really know. i'll just go about my day-to-day work. classes. and so much more that i'll i forget. but should i forget. no ever really knows.
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who would have thought i'd be writing in this thing at 6:31 am-lol.
i've had alot on my mind and have failed ever expressing anything.
everything is just so hectic. school. work. classes. there's so much work but i've been keeping up. studying. papers. projects. i can't believe its going by so fast. it's almost halloween and soon it will be thanksgiving and then christmas and first semester of senior will be over.
why does it have to all go by so fast. do you ever feel like your missing something. a part of it. a part of life along the way. i certainly do. i guess i've been busy so much lately that I've kinda lost myself in all my work. i don't know how long its been since i've seen friends from home or even certain people here. i miss them. hopefully i'll see people soon maybe sometime this weekend if i'm lucky.
do you ever feel like the world is going by so fast that you just can't keep up. that's how i feel. at least i think thats how i feel know. who ever really knows how to feel about the future. ive been planning working on my resume but something is still missing. by the time thanksgiving comes will i have something to be thankful for. who really knows.
i remember the first time we did thanksgiving back home at Kristen's house. Me, Randy, Gigs, Kristen, Gum, Julie, Sara and Scott. it's such a vivid memory and why does it have to be. people say change is good for us but i still feel everythings changed so much i've lost myself along the way. i keep remembering beowulf, and macbeth. i remember bowling and late nites at Angie's and fraps with Ashley and whether i like it or not i remember movies with guys at jose's. why did that have to change. i know they say u meet ppl along your path in life that make you who you are today but who am i. the past just makes me regret things, and sad. how do you grow from that. i know its obvious that things like that make you a stronger person. but why couldn't i have all that and still be happy. sometimes i feel like my happiness is just lost amidst all the photographs of captured moments in time. who really knows now.
why can't i truly be happy. why can't things be like they used to be. why do i feel so alone in this world and still have so many people that care. and why are there nites when i feel like this i'll never really know. i'll just go about my day-to-day work. classes. and so much more that i'll i forget. but should i forget. no ever really knows.
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