...the long, cold, walk home.

[mikeslvejrnl]

i dont know what to say. ill 'try' by starting off the day as if nothing happened. i woke up, went to class, went to work, went home. nothing. a nice night. i was in a good mood.

so, god has a fucked up sense of humor. fuck him. tonight was 'the' absolute worst fucking night ive ever experienced in my entire small fucked up life. and thats me... all i know is that things will change. dramatically. im still in shock. the irony. i fucking hate irony! fuck it to hell. fuck! now im just upset. if ur reading this... im sooo fucking sorry. i feel like it was my fault. if i could change things i would in a second. ive never ever fucking felt like i should cry but my emotions are like as if a car was hitting a wall right now. im so fucking sorry. i wouldnt care about someone else but about someone i care about really is making me go nuts right now.

i dont want to say this but i should. after the chaos, in the aftermath. there is hope. i hope that because of the change in my life. and in anothers life. that maybe life will be better. with all else aside. ...i hope.

tonight ended with the long, cold, walk home; and thats it.

p.s. please no one comment.