damn :(
my best friend is gone.. i dont even know if i'll ever see her again. i dont know how fuckin serious this is.. but i know it is. i unno.. reality hit when i had to go down to guidence this morning and mrs. koszas talked to me about it. she wanted me to know. and only me. so im happy that she sees me as that kind of friend. i was lonely today and all i did was think about her. this sucks. i wish i coulda helped her and then fixed everything but i know that wasnt possible. i cant even go to see her or talk to her on the phone.. nothing =( i have a feeling shes gonna be gone for awhile. so once again im back to my loner self at school. i was talking to mike about it. and he was like "you still have me" and yah that made me smile. but we barley talk in school. i dont wanna invade. but really.. she is the only person i really hung with at school.. shes my only best friend here in fag florida. see..ever since i moved here. bad things have happened. very few good things. i hate this. i was sad all day. and of course like always... no one notices.. only mr. b noticed.. cuz he's one of the few who knows whats going on.. the principal, mrs kozas, mr bishop... me and now mike are the only ones who know. and im not supposed to talk about it.. but i didnt go into detail on here so its fine. and i trust mike. im so lost right now =(