FUCKIN FSDBNJKBJK!!!
i feel like fuckin shit and i hate myself so freakin much right now.. mike makes me feel like shit at school.. and i feel like no one to him. and that doesn't make me feel all that great. cuz it ruins the day and i can't be happy.. and everyone freakin pisses me the HELL OFF! I DONT FREAKIN GET TO TALK TO HIM AT SCHOOL.. AND WHAT NOW? NOW I CANT FUCKIN SEE HIM. DAMN, I ASK MY DAD IF MIKE CAN COME OVER TOMORROW AND MY DAD WAS BEING AN ASS ABOUT IT. AND WAS LIKE "WELL I HAVE TO GO TO LUNCH WITH MOM 2-3, SO HE CAN COME AFTER THAT" WELL THAT WOULD BE FUCKIN GREAT IF IT WOULD WORK!!!!! IF MIKE COMES AT FREAKIN 3 THEN HE HAS TO LEAVE AT 5 CUZ THATS THE LAST FUCKIN BUS, AND MY DAD DOESNT LIKE HIM, SO HE WONT DRIVE HIM HOME. LAST TIME MIKE AND I WANTED TO HANG ON A WEEKEND.. IT GOT RUINED ALSO.. AND THATS THE ONLY TIME WE EVER HAVE TOGETHER.. AND HE ACTUALLY ACKNOWLEDGES ME AS HIS FREAKIN GF. I HATE THIS SO FREAKIN MUCH. IM ASKIN MYSELF WHY THE FUCK IM EITHER BOTHERING ANYMORE.. WHY DO I STAY WITH HIM, IF HE DOESNT TALK TO ME, AND WHEN I GO SEE HIM AT SCHOOL.. I GET FREAKIN IGNORED.. AND NOW MY DAD HAS TO BE AN ASS... BUT I REALLY REALLY LOVE MIKE. I DONT KNOW WHY EVERYTHING IS TURNING OUT SO FREAKIN SHITTY.. IT WASN'T LIKE THIS LAST SCHOOL YEAR, HE ACTUALLY WALKED AROUND WITH ME AT SCHOOL.. AND CAME AND SAT WITH ME AND SHIT.. BUT NOW.. ITS ONLY HIS FRIENDS. AND I HATE THAT ONE FUCKIN GIRL CUZ SHES ALWAYS TALKIN TO HIM AND HANGIN ALL OVER HIM. I WAS HOPING THAT.. ME NOT GOING TO HIS AREA FOR THE LAST 3 DAYS WOULD GIVE HIM A FUCKIN CLUE. THE OTHER DAY HE FREAKIN PROMISED THAT HE'D TALK TO ME AND PAY MORE ATTENTION TO ME AT SCHOOL. THAT LASTED ONE FREAKIN DAY.. AND TODAY HE WAS AN ASS.. AND HIM ONLY GETTIN 2 HOURS OF SLEEP.. THATS NOT A GOOD EXCUSE SERIOUSLY! I HAVE 3RD BLOCK WITH HIM, I DONT SIT WITH HIM, I WAITED FOR HIM AFTER CLASS.. AND HE WAS LIKE "IM GOING TO MY NEXT CLASS AND GONNA TRY TO SLEEP" AND I SAID "OK BYE.." NO HUG OR ANYTHING.. AHHHHHH I WANT TO FLIP OUT SO FUCKIN BAD! MY LIFE SUCKS TO THE FREAKIN MAX RIGHT NOW!!