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ARGH!! i need mike before i freakin breakdown. im like depressed/sad whatever the fuck my emotions are.. i just want to see him, i want to know that everything is ok. honeslty... idk anymore. it just doesn't seem the same anymore. i mean... he chose to hang with his friends for the weekend over me.. i mean. no i don't have a problem with that. he was gonna come see me before he left.. but he needed an answer right then, and there was no way i could get one. and sunday is that girls birthday.. and they're all going bowling or what not.. and i think thats why mike is at his friends. that one.. i dont have a problem with her. i've been talkin to her and shit on myspace. we're cool with each other.. maybe its just jealousy. idk. cuz u kno.. she's prettier than me and crap. honestly.. i think about mike all the freakin time. even at work.. i'll just freakin zone out and be thinking about him. and i think im doing it too much and its bothering me. i love him more than anything in the world. he's the best boyfriend i have ever been with, and im closer to him than i was with my other ex.. and we've only been dating a little over 3 months, and the other was over a year and a half. im just scared that ill lose him and i dont want that. hes everything ive always wanted and idk what i would do without him. hes the only person who has loved me for me, and actually means it. this is why i am SOOOO looking forward to going back to school..i will be able to see him everyday now, and possibly see him on weekends and have some alone time. and that'll make me feel much better. and i swear to fuckin god.. if there are any little freshman girls flirting, hanging all over him and shit.. i will raise hell. i hate freshman, espicially little prissy girls. luckily.. first semester i will have no classes with freshman =] cuz.. they can't be in my math or history class cuz they needa take other ones first. they cant be in my pottery class.. cuz its 2.. and yeeeah. mikes gonna be stuck with them tho... in his electives. ok.. well im hoping mikes gonna get online. haven't talked to him since thursday nite.. grrr.. and most likely wont talk to him till monday, unless he gets home at a decent time sunday and comes online. grr i wish he had a cell phone =(i miss him...ALOT.