A faithful return
Is it possible to have a negative outlook that breeds only positive outcomes or to have a positive outlook that only breeds negative outcomes? It seems as though the second part of that sentence is correct. Every day people wake up and decide to live with happiness or demise, why does the negative always find a way to wiggle in? I’m not certain, but I think I have a good idea. It goes something along the lines of being in a battle, living on the edge of destruction. Certain things are very important to creation, good and bad. Then there are factors that only destroy and carry no explanation along with them. Why is this? I do see the beauty in everything and everyone but it seems as though that positive outlook begins to dwindle because of the negativity around me. I try to live my life completely and free of regret but as each day passes the ball grows larger and heavier. I will always smile, then when you break my bones and drain my blood, for I know my reward. It does get harder though, it gets harder because of all these negative souls draining the happiness out of every smile, heart, or soul. I have wondered this for years, why is it that negative feelings are easier to express then feelings of rapture? Well this may not be the case for everyone, but it is the case for me. I do like to talk and tell stories about my life but those very happy moments sometimes stay tucked under my tongue and in my heart. This does not mean I am a negative, I am not at all a negative person, and I pride myself in my joy and the love I have to offer. Sometimes instead of smiling and being in a good mood I want to scream out my Joy and share my exhilaration with the world. I don’t know how sometimes, I feel like I need a certain person to compliment and understand all of my happiness. It is easy to share happiness with any person, yes. I am speaking with full understanding though; I want to acquire the feeling where I know that no matter what I say or do I am always understood. I think this is quite possible to achieve and I know I will one day. My curiosity asks myself if I went wrong in a certain part of my life but I think the correct answer is no, I’ve never went wrong. In an ocean of mistakes, accidents, regret, sorrow, and death I will find my happiness on the shore across the blue infinity. Every stroke I’ve taken I have learned something new with nothing to hold me back and prevent my education. This is my ocean and my journey; no negative soul can bring me down as long as I keep focused on the goal. The best part about having a goal is taking notice of all the beauty around us because if we are trying to get something right for our lives then we will be blessed with so many amazing things along the way. Don’t let the darkness wrap around your eyes and don’t let the negativity close your lips. Focus on the good, learn from the bad, and take notice in the beauty of it all. Potential is not earned, it is utilized.