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Well I havent updated in AWHILE.. My girlfriend Crystal and I broke up a couple weeks ago. She said the reason we broke up was because things werent going good. And she wanted to work on things so they could get better. Well turns out she broke up with me so she could go fool around with some guy in Jacksonville. She lied to me and told me she was going to see her friend Stephanie in Ft Myers, but she went to J'ville instead. She got caught because she was 5 hours late getting home, and I asked her why it took her so long. She admited she didnt go to Ft Myers and said she didnt tell me cause she didnt tell anyone. Well I knew something was up,and got it out of her. She said she did "stuff" with him, and it also wasnt the first time she lied to me. That hurt cause I was totally committed to her,and I NEVER lied to her. I guess I set myself up, Because I believed she would be honest and committed to me. I just dont know anymore, she called me and apologized and told me to come over the other night. I keep giving in , so I went over and we talked about "us". And she said she was sorry and she really needed me in her life, and she wont do that again, I can trust her,ect ect.. all I heard was BLAH BLAH BLAH.. Cause once she told me she lied to me and other stuff, its hard for me to ever trust her. Ive been told by all my friends I can do ALOT better, and I know I can.. But Its hard letting her go cause I love her and Im used to her being there. My life would be different if she wasnt in my life. Im keeping my eyes open though, and if she doesnt start to take things seriously.. than Im sure eventually I'll find someone who im happy with. Ok well enough about that. Gotta go work out at the gym. Later - Mikey