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wow...i have been awake for over 58 hours....no fucking lie....
i dont know how i am handling it...all i know is that i have been really sad for the last 58 hours...and i really need a cigg which i dont have...grr
i cant seem to sleep at all....i really think this is unhealthy....infact i know it is....58 fucing hours.....that is insane...but everytime i put my head down and try to sleep i just get sad even more and i end up wanting a cigg even more...then i start getting pissy and moody at everyone....then this is around the point where i go legally insane...i sware this morning i was fucked in the head...i was so delirious
i dont know what im going to do about my life cuz i fucking hate it with a passion....if you think of anything you should let me know....maybe ill go paint on some trains....haha...yeah right...if i was artistic that would sound like a good idea...i wish there was a way i can express music with everyone with out everyone knowing that it is me who is expressing the music....that doesnt even seem possible....but hey...maybe being awake so long will make me smart...haha...im funny...yeah
fuck...ok well.........peace i guess
i dont know how i am handling it...all i know is that i have been really sad for the last 58 hours...and i really need a cigg which i dont have...grr
i cant seem to sleep at all....i really think this is unhealthy....infact i know it is....58 fucing hours.....that is insane...but everytime i put my head down and try to sleep i just get sad even more and i end up wanting a cigg even more...then i start getting pissy and moody at everyone....then this is around the point where i go legally insane...i sware this morning i was fucked in the head...i was so delirious
i dont know what im going to do about my life cuz i fucking hate it with a passion....if you think of anything you should let me know....maybe ill go paint on some trains....haha...yeah right...if i was artistic that would sound like a good idea...i wish there was a way i can express music with everyone with out everyone knowing that it is me who is expressing the music....that doesnt even seem possible....but hey...maybe being awake so long will make me smart...haha...im funny...yeah
fuck...ok well.........peace i guess