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"So let's drink to memories we shared
Down one for all the hopes and cares
Here's two for being unaware that you're gone
Because before too long you'll be a memory"
I'm still extremely angry about everything that happened. I'm slowly coming around but every time I begin to think about you I remember the texts and it brings me back to square one. How could you do that? If only you knew the truth about how I'm taking this. If only you knew how I felt. I won't voice it to anyone, though. It's a shame. I'm surrounded by people I love and who love me, yet I have no one to talk to.
I miss a lot more than people think. We definitely had our shitty times, but fuck...the good times made up for it.
I think what hurts the most is the unknown. How long was this going on behind my back? How many inappropriate things were said? How long was I made a fucking FOOL?!
And there I go, back to hating you. I want so bad to hurt you the way you hurt me. SO. FUCKING. BAD.
But I won't.
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Alexandra Blair Alden, I do still care about you. The last thing I ever want is for you to feel any ounce of sadness because of me. Just know that I think about you everyday, and I catch myself thinking, "what if things turned out the way we had planned?". Unfortunately, life has a funny way of changing things. I'm so, so sorry.
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I've noticed a lot has changed with me. I'm happier. I've been spending nearly everyday with my best friends. I've started skating again. I'm finding out that I CAN cook. New pet additions to the family, a new bed frame, new gaming laptop, and a new person I can share my feelings with. Someone who I can trust.
Down one for all the hopes and cares
Here's two for being unaware that you're gone
Because before too long you'll be a memory"
I'm still extremely angry about everything that happened. I'm slowly coming around but every time I begin to think about you I remember the texts and it brings me back to square one. How could you do that? If only you knew the truth about how I'm taking this. If only you knew how I felt. I won't voice it to anyone, though. It's a shame. I'm surrounded by people I love and who love me, yet I have no one to talk to.
I miss a lot more than people think. We definitely had our shitty times, but fuck...the good times made up for it.
I think what hurts the most is the unknown. How long was this going on behind my back? How many inappropriate things were said? How long was I made a fucking FOOL?!
And there I go, back to hating you. I want so bad to hurt you the way you hurt me. SO. FUCKING. BAD.
But I won't.
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Alexandra Blair Alden, I do still care about you. The last thing I ever want is for you to feel any ounce of sadness because of me. Just know that I think about you everyday, and I catch myself thinking, "what if things turned out the way we had planned?". Unfortunately, life has a funny way of changing things. I'm so, so sorry.
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I've noticed a lot has changed with me. I'm happier. I've been spending nearly everyday with my best friends. I've started skating again. I'm finding out that I CAN cook. New pet additions to the family, a new bed frame, new gaming laptop, and a new person I can share my feelings with. Someone who I can trust.