Up on my soapbox. Again~
Let's see. I got my independence of thought and emotion back after six months. By throwing up walls. I'm not emotionally ready to put myself all the way out there with people who are as constantly in flux as Becca and Blake. Hopefully I can strike a nice balance between being myself/being in a good mood and caring. I like caring mostly.
Not always. Second thing. The things I think. Nasty shit about Blake, his relationship, people in general, general cynicism and hate. I want to be done pretending it doesn't exist. It just manifests as passive-agression or "hey fuck you" "jokes" and I fucking hate that. I also want to be done with it, and I can do what I can do, but that ain't happening. I am not a nice guy all the time and this needs to be acknowledged and dealt with instead of just ignored or vocalized only when it's built up so much that it consumes me. Which is rarely. But uh yeah Blake, your input is expected. To say the least.
This is really not meant to be a negative post. Dearie me.
Anyway, I think my point is, we're all from Circumstances and you gotta make exceptions. Also, Fuck You.
Not always. Second thing. The things I think. Nasty shit about Blake, his relationship, people in general, general cynicism and hate. I want to be done pretending it doesn't exist. It just manifests as passive-agression or "hey fuck you" "jokes" and I fucking hate that. I also want to be done with it, and I can do what I can do, but that ain't happening. I am not a nice guy all the time and this needs to be acknowledged and dealt with instead of just ignored or vocalized only when it's built up so much that it consumes me. Which is rarely. But uh yeah Blake, your input is expected. To say the least.
This is really not meant to be a negative post. Dearie me.
Anyway, I think my point is, we're all from Circumstances and you gotta make exceptions. Also, Fuck You.