I am annoyed with technology.
My MP3 player won't turn on or off, its stuck somewhere in the middle and the reset button doesn't seem to actually do anything.
My computer is, in general, crap. I find doing two things at once (ie. music and livejournal) to be entirely too much for it.
My external drive has suddenly decided to become picky and selectively functional.
My burner makes this wicked clunk clunk chunky whir noise when I turn it on.
So what I'm saying is: I need a new computer.
Perhaps it will fix my Zen issues, but probably not. I think I just need to get a new one of those too. Too bad, I really like it.
But what I am thinking is: what if everyone I know donated to a new computer fund for Christmas? I'm not really sure how you ask for that from the parents, but if they gave me money instead of presents, and anyone else that was planning on buying me something just gives me like, ten bucks, who knows what magic might incur.
And then I can get a computer with lots of room to put stuff on my actual laptop, a burner built right in (imagine that!), and that can open a MySpace profile without freaking out. Not that I ever look at MySpace. I don't really like it. But lets be honest, the Pitchfork news page bogs my computer down enough its not even worth trying. I'm lucky that it manages to play scarble.
Whatever. My life is full of this crap right now. I know I need patience, but sometimes it seems like a lot of work. My life is my own and I will not let someone else have it, but you know what, sometimes that would be wonderful. I could lay my head in his hands and let him do as he wills. He can decide what I deserve and what I don't. If I find myself without, it is because that is the way it should be. And I don't need to worry anymore. And if it is provided to me, all the better.
Lets be honest though, this life is mine, and if I don't do it for me no one will. My head rests firmly on my shoulders, and I must watch my peripheries. Gunshots come from all over.
My computer is, in general, crap. I find doing two things at once (ie. music and livejournal) to be entirely too much for it.
My external drive has suddenly decided to become picky and selectively functional.
My burner makes this wicked clunk clunk chunky whir noise when I turn it on.
So what I'm saying is: I need a new computer.
Perhaps it will fix my Zen issues, but probably not. I think I just need to get a new one of those too. Too bad, I really like it.
But what I am thinking is: what if everyone I know donated to a new computer fund for Christmas? I'm not really sure how you ask for that from the parents, but if they gave me money instead of presents, and anyone else that was planning on buying me something just gives me like, ten bucks, who knows what magic might incur.
And then I can get a computer with lots of room to put stuff on my actual laptop, a burner built right in (imagine that!), and that can open a MySpace profile without freaking out. Not that I ever look at MySpace. I don't really like it. But lets be honest, the Pitchfork news page bogs my computer down enough its not even worth trying. I'm lucky that it manages to play scarble.
Whatever. My life is full of this crap right now. I know I need patience, but sometimes it seems like a lot of work. My life is my own and I will not let someone else have it, but you know what, sometimes that would be wonderful. I could lay my head in his hands and let him do as he wills. He can decide what I deserve and what I don't. If I find myself without, it is because that is the way it should be. And I don't need to worry anymore. And if it is provided to me, all the better.
Lets be honest though, this life is mine, and if I don't do it for me no one will. My head rests firmly on my shoulders, and I must watch my peripheries. Gunshots come from all over.