Life Losses.
I know that part of life is loss. Part of life is gain. Intrinsically then we must have loss. I have been to too many funerals. However, I accept that. I accept that life includes death, and that people must go. Young or old, we all are finite. We have an end. To be so driven until we meet that end is what matters. Lately I have had to come face to face with another loss. To lose someone who is still standing next to me. I have friends I have not seen in years. And I miss them. Somedays more than others. But I will see them again. They did not fall through the cracks, they are still very important to me. A new sense of loss is awwakened when a friend becomes something otherwise. A polite smile to appease. My friend's friend. How could I have had someone special in my life evaporate in front of my eyes? Its difficult to take in, and even harder to swallow. There are those I have some cracks to work out, but they will are still a part of my life in a weird way. I don't know if they know it, but they are. This one though, its odd to me to edit out what was part of my life. Whats worse, is still on the edges of my view. Blend into the masses. Smudge the corners. Let him mean nothing, for that is all I have to give to him. Depressing that this will not be the last. This is the first in a list I wish I did not have to carry around with me. Today, I don't like growing up.