Ring to the Wall [Five]
Title : Ring to the Wall [5/?]
Pairing : OnJong
Rating : PG 13 (Mild language and violence)
Genre : angst, drama, romance
Summary : Jonghyun finally proposed to his girlfriend Shin Se Kyung but finds out she had been using him. He accidentally causes Onew to become hospitalized in an out burst of rage. The injury causes Onew to change his personality.
DISCLAIMER: Sadly I don't own SHINee, no one ever will. I don't own Shin Se Kyung either.
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Pancakes. That's what Jonghyun wanted, pancakes. Even the simple thought of of the simple breakfast food made his mouth water. After two days of cheaply made hospital food he had begun to miss Key's delicious and fluffy pancakes. They would melt in his mouth with every bite and were so good they did not need any toppings.
No, he did not miss the pancakes. The pancakes were just what brought five boys together on the weekends. Each member had their own special way of eating the meal that made the morning special. Minho would thinly spread marmalade over his pancakes while he watched Taemin smoother his in butter and sweet maple syrup. Key would never have time to eat them as he was always in the kitchen making more for the ravenous boys. Both Jonghyun and Onew would eat them topping-less and irritate Key by seeing who could eat more.
Cold water splashed in his dirty face. Time was starting to flow together for him. Jonghyun took the bar of soap and worked up a lather between his hands. He stuck his head in the slim space between the faucet and the bottom of the sink and rubbed the soap into his blood stained hair. He knew soap was bad for his hair but there was no shampoo to be found and Key had left without leaving him any yesterday. Just thinking about the events that occurred the day before made Jonghyun put more vigor into his hair washing.
Stupid Onew and his stupid kisses. It intoxicated Jonghyun into accepting the other. But when Key had kissed him he had refused the action. His body rejected it. He was disgusted by the younger yet why didn't he feel this way about Onew? Jonghyun was confused.
Soapy, red blood drained out of the sink. Jonghyun looked up at himself in the mirror above the sink. He looked like a wet dog. The blood had been washed out of his hair but he still did not look any better than before. Dark circles framed blood shot eyes. He shook his head around a few times in an attempt to dry his hair.
Jonghyun walked out of the bathroom and back into Onew's hospital room. It had been around a full twenty-four hours since he had woken up.
“I hope that wasn't your favorite shirt 'cause I don't think you'll ever be wearing that again.” Onew was sitting in the chain Jonghyun had sat and slept in for the past two days. He had wheeled his IV closer to him. He spread his legs apart ever so slightly.
Jonghyun looked down at his shirt as he sat down in the unoccupied chair next to Onew. He tried to rub away a few of the blood stains but gave up soon after. He looked to his left at the first man to ever kiss him.
The singer could not stop himself from staring at his leader's moist lips. Those were the lips that intoxicated him and paralyzed his body.
Onew noticed where the younger's gaze was fixed. A mischievous grin spread across his face as his hands slowly made their way towards Jonghyun's face. They were only a foot away. They were only half a foot away from his face. They were only inches away from his face. They were an inch away from his face. They barely grazed the surface of Jonghyun's face until be pushed Onew away. With his hands swatted down he looked up.
Two shocked figures stood in the doorway. Taemin dropped his school bag. Minho's face elongated with the opening of his mouth. Jonghyun did not know what they were so surprised about. Was it Onew or was it Onew caressing his face?
“Onew hyung.” Minho let words escape out of his gaping mouth. “When did you wake up?”
Taemin broke his stiffness and ran over to Onew. He wrapped his arms around the older. He gave him a tight squeeze. Small but unpleasant moans from Onew let Taemin know it was time to let go which he quickly obeyed.
Minho had moved behind Taemin by then and the four boys burst out in spontaneous laughter to cheer up the moment. But the laughter had to end and that it did. The reality of the situation rained down on them.
“I've been awake for about a day.” The room became grim once again. Taemin and Minho now understood what had happened the day before. Key lied to them. But why would Key lie about their leader being awake?
“As in twenty-four hours?” Minho could not believe this. To him it was a lie. Everything was a lie. Onew, Key, everybody. “But when we came by yesterday Key told us that you were still-” Minho paused to think carefully about how to say his words. “-asleep.”
“Yeah,” Onew did not know what Key had said. He did not know of Key's lie. “Key came and visited me shortly after I woke up.”
Minho quickly gave a small shake of his head to rid himself of Key's words and tell Jonghyun what he needed to hear.
“Jonghyun hyung.” Jonghyun snapped his head towards the rapper. His speedy response even surprised himself. “Key informed you of our decision to send you to a therapist right?”
“Yeah, and I'm fine with it.” The singer stood up and brushed off the non-existent dust off of his pants. “If you could take me back to the dorm for a few minutes you can take me there now.”
“Sure.” Jonghyun left the room first with Minho and Taemin following after him. Onew just sat there in the chair in awe. But his hair is still wet.
Jonghyun was taken back to the dorm where he quickly changed from his blood stained garments into crisp and clean clothes. His hair was still wet but it could pass as rocker hair or the hair of a psychopath who hadn't gotten decent sleep or a shower in days. Maybe it leaned towards the second option but nobody would notice, right?
Taemin had homework to do so he stayed at the dorm. Minho only offered to drop his hyung off at the door then left. And there he stood, in front of a wooden door that separated Jonghyun from a therapist that could possibly fix things for him. The door opened and he lied down on a couch as he was instructed. They talked and talked but then it came to the subject of the accident. Of Jonghyun's outburst of rage against Onew.
“Jonghyun ah, tell me,” The therapist turned to a fresh sheet of paper to write his notes on. “Why do you think you did such things to your band mate yet ended up sitting with him throughout his hospitalization without doing anything to him?”
The singer stopped for a minute to think out his words. There was so much to say yet he had no idea how to say it.
“I don't know.” The therapist watched the hesitant boy. He could tell why he did what he did. He could tell before he even walked through the door but there would be no fun in it if Jonghyun didn't find out on his own.
“You don't know.”
“Well,” Jonghyun scratched his head ever so slightly. “I guess I was just mad and Onew hyung-”
“You can refer to him by his real name.”
“-Jinki hyung just happened to be at the table repeating the same words I used in my proposal to a piece of chicken.”
The therapist raised his eyebrow in curiosity. He was in disbelief that anybody would be so strange as to propose to an inanimate object. I need to have this Lee Jinki checked out sometime. He might need my help. “He was proposing to a piece of chicken?”
“Yeah,” Jonghyun did not notice the therapist's reaction to his leader's strange habits and continued talking. “Stuff like that happens every now and again. No big deal.”
“Please continue.”
“Sure. I was also sorta pissed that he didn't want to go with the rest of the members to see me propose to Se Kyung. And even while I was down on one knee he didn't pay attention. He was just sulking in a corner.”
While Jonghyun looked away the therapist noticed something. Onew had been hiding a secret from the singer and he had figured it out. He scribbled a few notes down on his note pad an quickly turned his attention back to his patient.
“Did Jinki do anything to you while you stayed in the hospital with him?”
He did not know if he should tell the truth. Lies were so much easier to tell. “Actually, something did happen. I was kissed twice while in that hospital.” The scratching of a pen against paper filled the spaces between words. “Jinki hyung kissed me as soon as he woke up then Key-”
“Real names please.”
“-Kibum kissed me in the hallway after seeing hyung kiss me earlier, but I pushed him away.”
“Why did you only reject Kibum? What about Jinki?”
“Kibum also asked me that.” Jonghyun linked his hands behind his head and stretched out. “I didn't have an answer for that. It felt sorta disgusting kissing Kibum. It felt wrong. But when Jinki hyung kissed me it felt like I couldn't escape. Rather, I didn't want to escape. It felt completely normal being with him.”
The therapist shut his notebook and looked up at his patient. It was apparent that he just did not realize the obvious and that he needed it spelt out for him.
“Jonghyun ah, I'm not going to write this down for your own sake so listen.” Jonghyun sat up on the couch and payed close attention. “I guess you're just too naïve or over flowed with emotion to notice but if you had properly payed attention to your hyung's emotions you would notice that he cares for you more than just a friend or just a band mate.”
The singer shook his head. There could be now way that Onew actually liked him, right?
“And I hate to say it but I think that having Shin Se Kyung betray you was beneficial. It allowed different feelings to incubate inside of you.”
“Then what the hell am I supposed to do then?” The singer was now standing, enraged by the mention of Se Kyung but also by the notion that she was good for him.
“I suggest you go and find Jinki and take the initiative. You obviously have some sort of feelings for him that you need to be in control of. Go use this time of weakness for him to your advantage.”
Jonghyun ran towards the door but not without a final statement from the therapist. He knew what he needed to do now. A light had been lit inside of him and he finally understood all of his confusing feelings. I think I like Lee Jinki.
“By the way,” He whipped his hair back towards the room. “I heard that Lee Jinki was released from the hospital right after you left. He should be back at your dorm right now.”
And so Jonghyun started his mad sprint for the SHINee dorms.
A/N : Like always, silent readers make me cry.
Sorry I'm almost a week late with this fic. I was being sorta lazy last week but Jonghyun's birthday inspired me to write this whole chapter in a day. Usually it takes me three days to write something like this coherently so I apologize for the typos and grammar issues.
Now that Jonghyun realized his feelings for Onew I feel like this fic going to come to an end soon. I predict about four more chapters.
Pairing : OnJong
Rating : PG 13 (Mild language and violence)
Genre : angst, drama, romance
Summary : Jonghyun finally proposed to his girlfriend Shin Se Kyung but finds out she had been using him. He accidentally causes Onew to become hospitalized in an out burst of rage. The injury causes Onew to change his personality.
DISCLAIMER: Sadly I don't own SHINee, no one ever will. I don't own Shin Se Kyung either.
| zero | one | two | three | four | five |
Pancakes. That's what Jonghyun wanted, pancakes. Even the simple thought of of the simple breakfast food made his mouth water. After two days of cheaply made hospital food he had begun to miss Key's delicious and fluffy pancakes. They would melt in his mouth with every bite and were so good they did not need any toppings.
No, he did not miss the pancakes. The pancakes were just what brought five boys together on the weekends. Each member had their own special way of eating the meal that made the morning special. Minho would thinly spread marmalade over his pancakes while he watched Taemin smoother his in butter and sweet maple syrup. Key would never have time to eat them as he was always in the kitchen making more for the ravenous boys. Both Jonghyun and Onew would eat them topping-less and irritate Key by seeing who could eat more.
Cold water splashed in his dirty face. Time was starting to flow together for him. Jonghyun took the bar of soap and worked up a lather between his hands. He stuck his head in the slim space between the faucet and the bottom of the sink and rubbed the soap into his blood stained hair. He knew soap was bad for his hair but there was no shampoo to be found and Key had left without leaving him any yesterday. Just thinking about the events that occurred the day before made Jonghyun put more vigor into his hair washing.
Stupid Onew and his stupid kisses. It intoxicated Jonghyun into accepting the other. But when Key had kissed him he had refused the action. His body rejected it. He was disgusted by the younger yet why didn't he feel this way about Onew? Jonghyun was confused.
Soapy, red blood drained out of the sink. Jonghyun looked up at himself in the mirror above the sink. He looked like a wet dog. The blood had been washed out of his hair but he still did not look any better than before. Dark circles framed blood shot eyes. He shook his head around a few times in an attempt to dry his hair.
Jonghyun walked out of the bathroom and back into Onew's hospital room. It had been around a full twenty-four hours since he had woken up.
“I hope that wasn't your favorite shirt 'cause I don't think you'll ever be wearing that again.” Onew was sitting in the chain Jonghyun had sat and slept in for the past two days. He had wheeled his IV closer to him. He spread his legs apart ever so slightly.
Jonghyun looked down at his shirt as he sat down in the unoccupied chair next to Onew. He tried to rub away a few of the blood stains but gave up soon after. He looked to his left at the first man to ever kiss him.
The singer could not stop himself from staring at his leader's moist lips. Those were the lips that intoxicated him and paralyzed his body.
Onew noticed where the younger's gaze was fixed. A mischievous grin spread across his face as his hands slowly made their way towards Jonghyun's face. They were only a foot away. They were only half a foot away from his face. They were only inches away from his face. They were an inch away from his face. They barely grazed the surface of Jonghyun's face until be pushed Onew away. With his hands swatted down he looked up.
Two shocked figures stood in the doorway. Taemin dropped his school bag. Minho's face elongated with the opening of his mouth. Jonghyun did not know what they were so surprised about. Was it Onew or was it Onew caressing his face?
“Onew hyung.” Minho let words escape out of his gaping mouth. “When did you wake up?”
Taemin broke his stiffness and ran over to Onew. He wrapped his arms around the older. He gave him a tight squeeze. Small but unpleasant moans from Onew let Taemin know it was time to let go which he quickly obeyed.
Minho had moved behind Taemin by then and the four boys burst out in spontaneous laughter to cheer up the moment. But the laughter had to end and that it did. The reality of the situation rained down on them.
“I've been awake for about a day.” The room became grim once again. Taemin and Minho now understood what had happened the day before. Key lied to them. But why would Key lie about their leader being awake?
“As in twenty-four hours?” Minho could not believe this. To him it was a lie. Everything was a lie. Onew, Key, everybody. “But when we came by yesterday Key told us that you were still-” Minho paused to think carefully about how to say his words. “-asleep.”
“Yeah,” Onew did not know what Key had said. He did not know of Key's lie. “Key came and visited me shortly after I woke up.”
Minho quickly gave a small shake of his head to rid himself of Key's words and tell Jonghyun what he needed to hear.
“Jonghyun hyung.” Jonghyun snapped his head towards the rapper. His speedy response even surprised himself. “Key informed you of our decision to send you to a therapist right?”
“Yeah, and I'm fine with it.” The singer stood up and brushed off the non-existent dust off of his pants. “If you could take me back to the dorm for a few minutes you can take me there now.”
“Sure.” Jonghyun left the room first with Minho and Taemin following after him. Onew just sat there in the chair in awe. But his hair is still wet.
Jonghyun was taken back to the dorm where he quickly changed from his blood stained garments into crisp and clean clothes. His hair was still wet but it could pass as rocker hair or the hair of a psychopath who hadn't gotten decent sleep or a shower in days. Maybe it leaned towards the second option but nobody would notice, right?
Taemin had homework to do so he stayed at the dorm. Minho only offered to drop his hyung off at the door then left. And there he stood, in front of a wooden door that separated Jonghyun from a therapist that could possibly fix things for him. The door opened and he lied down on a couch as he was instructed. They talked and talked but then it came to the subject of the accident. Of Jonghyun's outburst of rage against Onew.
“Jonghyun ah, tell me,” The therapist turned to a fresh sheet of paper to write his notes on. “Why do you think you did such things to your band mate yet ended up sitting with him throughout his hospitalization without doing anything to him?”
The singer stopped for a minute to think out his words. There was so much to say yet he had no idea how to say it.
“I don't know.” The therapist watched the hesitant boy. He could tell why he did what he did. He could tell before he even walked through the door but there would be no fun in it if Jonghyun didn't find out on his own.
“You don't know.”
“Well,” Jonghyun scratched his head ever so slightly. “I guess I was just mad and Onew hyung-”
“You can refer to him by his real name.”
“-Jinki hyung just happened to be at the table repeating the same words I used in my proposal to a piece of chicken.”
The therapist raised his eyebrow in curiosity. He was in disbelief that anybody would be so strange as to propose to an inanimate object. I need to have this Lee Jinki checked out sometime. He might need my help. “He was proposing to a piece of chicken?”
“Yeah,” Jonghyun did not notice the therapist's reaction to his leader's strange habits and continued talking. “Stuff like that happens every now and again. No big deal.”
“Please continue.”
“Sure. I was also sorta pissed that he didn't want to go with the rest of the members to see me propose to Se Kyung. And even while I was down on one knee he didn't pay attention. He was just sulking in a corner.”
While Jonghyun looked away the therapist noticed something. Onew had been hiding a secret from the singer and he had figured it out. He scribbled a few notes down on his note pad an quickly turned his attention back to his patient.
“Did Jinki do anything to you while you stayed in the hospital with him?”
He did not know if he should tell the truth. Lies were so much easier to tell. “Actually, something did happen. I was kissed twice while in that hospital.” The scratching of a pen against paper filled the spaces between words. “Jinki hyung kissed me as soon as he woke up then Key-”
“Real names please.”
“-Kibum kissed me in the hallway after seeing hyung kiss me earlier, but I pushed him away.”
“Why did you only reject Kibum? What about Jinki?”
“Kibum also asked me that.” Jonghyun linked his hands behind his head and stretched out. “I didn't have an answer for that. It felt sorta disgusting kissing Kibum. It felt wrong. But when Jinki hyung kissed me it felt like I couldn't escape. Rather, I didn't want to escape. It felt completely normal being with him.”
The therapist shut his notebook and looked up at his patient. It was apparent that he just did not realize the obvious and that he needed it spelt out for him.
“Jonghyun ah, I'm not going to write this down for your own sake so listen.” Jonghyun sat up on the couch and payed close attention. “I guess you're just too naïve or over flowed with emotion to notice but if you had properly payed attention to your hyung's emotions you would notice that he cares for you more than just a friend or just a band mate.”
The singer shook his head. There could be now way that Onew actually liked him, right?
“And I hate to say it but I think that having Shin Se Kyung betray you was beneficial. It allowed different feelings to incubate inside of you.”
“Then what the hell am I supposed to do then?” The singer was now standing, enraged by the mention of Se Kyung but also by the notion that she was good for him.
“I suggest you go and find Jinki and take the initiative. You obviously have some sort of feelings for him that you need to be in control of. Go use this time of weakness for him to your advantage.”
Jonghyun ran towards the door but not without a final statement from the therapist. He knew what he needed to do now. A light had been lit inside of him and he finally understood all of his confusing feelings. I think I like Lee Jinki.
“By the way,” He whipped his hair back towards the room. “I heard that Lee Jinki was released from the hospital right after you left. He should be back at your dorm right now.”
And so Jonghyun started his mad sprint for the SHINee dorms.
A/N : Like always, silent readers make me cry.
Sorry I'm almost a week late with this fic. I was being sorta lazy last week but Jonghyun's birthday inspired me to write this whole chapter in a day. Usually it takes me three days to write something like this coherently so I apologize for the typos and grammar issues.
Now that Jonghyun realized his feelings for Onew I feel like this fic going to come to an end soon. I predict about four more chapters.