So Life goes on...
I have spread my dreams beneath your feet. Tread softly because you tread on my dreams.
W.B. Yeats
So my world get turned upside down, and yet life proceeds with or without me. Im dumped beneath the waves, and not sure which was is up, but thats when you are suppose to stop and be still, and you will start to rise up naturally, then you know which direction to swim. Atleast this is what Im telling myself, I need time to recooperate, learn to trust myself again before I try to trust anyone else. Ive found out things since he left, and it seems I never really knew him at all. I still dont understand how he could be with someone else and then come back to me as though nothing had happened at all. I have spoken to one of his many, and now I dont know if he was ever true to me. I had wanted him to go, had asked him more than once to leave, but to be betrayed like this actually hurts.
Im not sure how to rebuild my life, but I need to do something, and I dont believe jumping back in the waters of dating are the way to go. Ive had offers come out of the woodwork, which surprised me. But I dont believe any of them are true, just after sex, and Ive had enough of that, I want someone who wont just fight with me, but will fight for me. Who'll be beside me through thick and thin. I want someone I can believe in...but perhaps I need to believe in myself first, be the person I want to be.