海ーalright alright alright alright
/Casually blows dust off of journal because damn.
So I feel like a lot has happened since my last journal update, but as always I can't seem to think of anything to write down?! I made some lovely new friends, who share my same SDR2 love~ That absolutely no one on this site knew about because BOY have things changed
I'm so terrible at keeping journals, even online ones it seems.
I ordered one of Soraru's CDs yesterday, which has me very excite. I mean, like, I actually bought a CD with real money as opposed to illegally downloading it, so that has to say something about what an event that is, right? I'm such a terrible person.
Also, like, I'm totes making grabby hands in the direction of DRRR!! volume 13. I just, okay, I really want it, like right now okay.
Ahah.
Alright, so I didn't necessarily "drop out" of school, but as has been known for me to do, I had this huge freak out existential crisis that resulted in me having a panic attack and going "Why am I doing this?! Why do I care about school?! Everything is meaningless, I just don't give a fuck anymore!" and I broke down and everyone was like, holy shit Maxxy calm down and talk to your counselor. So that's what I did, and he was basically like "Well if I knew you had such anxiety from the get go I would have told you that there were other options besides high school?! Sign here and you never have to show up again, but you'll still be considered in education!" and I just kind of stared blankly.
And now I take an almost-not-quite online physics/English course but it's really kind of useless and now even really considered "online school" so it's confusing. At least I'm not technically a NEET.
Kiara wants for me to one day go to see her in Cali... which would be nice if I didn't already have an anxiety of driving around the corner, let alone across the country. And fuck flying okay, just no, that isn't happening. I can't do that thing, with the airplanes, and the high places, and stuff. Clouds are nice though.
Also:
[6:22:17 AM] 「 L I A R 」: if i could walk to cali i probably wouldn't because that's too far away and i am a weak fragile person i'd die
[6:22:23 AM] 「 L I A R 」: is that it kiara do you want me to die
[6:22:26 AM] Komaeda Nagito: no
[6:22:26 AM] 「 L I A R 」: i see your plan i see
[6:22:31 AM] Komaeda Nagito: no maxxy
[6:22:32 AM] 「 L I A R 」: no need to lie it's out there now
[6:22:36 AM] Komaeda Nagito: maxxy no
[6:22:37 AM] 「 L I A R 」: kiara wants me to die.
[6:22:41 AM] Komaeda Nagito: MAXXY NO
Okay but this site is like basically abandoned by everyone I know so why am I even writing here?! Pouring your meaningless heart out to an online journal is somewhat soothing, or at least the thought of it might be, anyway.
I'm rambling now wow adios friendmigos.
☆ ー I updated my contact information in my "first" top entry, by the way~ I won't bother to check if it's correct right now, so it's whatever if it's not.
So I feel like a lot has happened since my last journal update, but as always I can't seem to think of anything to write down?! I made some lovely new friends, who share my same SDR2 love~ That absolutely no one on this site knew about because BOY have things changed
I'm so terrible at keeping journals, even online ones it seems.
I ordered one of Soraru's CDs yesterday, which has me very excite. I mean, like, I actually bought a CD with real money as opposed to illegally downloading it, so that has to say something about what an event that is, right? I'm such a terrible person.
Also, like, I'm totes making grabby hands in the direction of DRRR!! volume 13. I just, okay, I really want it, like right now okay.
Ahah.
Alright, so I didn't necessarily "drop out" of school, but as has been known for me to do, I had this huge freak out existential crisis that resulted in me having a panic attack and going "Why am I doing this?! Why do I care about school?! Everything is meaningless, I just don't give a fuck anymore!" and I broke down and everyone was like, holy shit Maxxy calm down and talk to your counselor. So that's what I did, and he was basically like "Well if I knew you had such anxiety from the get go I would have told you that there were other options besides high school?! Sign here and you never have to show up again, but you'll still be considered in education!" and I just kind of stared blankly.
And now I take an almost-not-quite online physics/English course but it's really kind of useless and now even really considered "online school" so it's confusing. At least I'm not technically a NEET.
Kiara wants for me to one day go to see her in Cali... which would be nice if I didn't already have an anxiety of driving around the corner, let alone across the country. And fuck flying okay, just no, that isn't happening. I can't do that thing, with the airplanes, and the high places, and stuff. Clouds are nice though.
Also:
[6:22:17 AM] 「 L I A R 」: if i could walk to cali i probably wouldn't because that's too far away and i am a weak fragile person i'd die
[6:22:23 AM] 「 L I A R 」: is that it kiara do you want me to die
[6:22:26 AM] Komaeda Nagito: no
[6:22:26 AM] 「 L I A R 」: i see your plan i see
[6:22:31 AM] Komaeda Nagito: no maxxy
[6:22:32 AM] 「 L I A R 」: no need to lie it's out there now
[6:22:36 AM] Komaeda Nagito: maxxy no
[6:22:37 AM] 「 L I A R 」: kiara wants me to die.
[6:22:41 AM] Komaeda Nagito: MAXXY NO
Okay but this site is like basically abandoned by everyone I know so why am I even writing here?! Pouring your meaningless heart out to an online journal is somewhat soothing, or at least the thought of it might be, anyway.
I'm rambling now wow adios friendmigos.
☆ ー I updated my contact information in my "first" top entry, by the way~ I won't bother to check if it's correct right now, so it's whatever if it's not.