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there are more options,
then appear in your visions.
if you took the opportunity,
you could find such purity.
i am so sick of opinions.
i have been stuck in an addictive cycle. i have been saturating myself with internet society. all i do pretty much is sit in front of this computer. i have very few friends in the city where i live. i have found very few individuals who share my interests and thought patterns who also share my geography.
for the most part, that's fine. i'm not really a zombie to this machine. i bathe, i work, i interact with my wife. i actually get out of the house every once awhile. i make it a point to see the outside world. although when i am released for an outing it's thrilling.
recently however i am sick of being social of the internet.
let me repeat that.
i am fed up, tired of, deathly board of, exchanging thought process with people on the intra-thing.
why?
because all the places i thought of as havens & sanctuaries of free thought, great ideas or at least clubs for people who share an obscure interest, have turned into massive piles of unrestrained, unchecked, political tension. it seems, i finally escaped the acrobatic assaults of dramatics from my real life, by well, essentially becoming a hermit. but now it has all moved to online.
this has nothing to do with anyone i chat with regularly or "im." for the most part however infrequent that is, it's pleasant.
but everywhere else i go it seems all these great e-conversations or pieces of meta-publication, or message boards or news sites, or blogs, or however you want to look at it, it all seems to get ruined by someone's agenda.
we all have an angle. i'm not excluded from this. but lately it's like you have to smear your opinion across someone else's screen like fecal matter to mark your territory. it's all so animal. i'm usually all for being in a lot of ways primal. instincts, raw emotions, pain tolerance rituals. but this is stupid.
and let me be clear, political agenda are wide ranging. i consider religious agendas to be political as well. even agendas i agree with make me feel this way when they are abused to the same extent as ones i don't agree with.
emotions, ideas, thoughts, open minds. simple debate. all these things are fine.
it's when you are passionate about being right, and furthering your cause, no matter who you disrupt, is when i feel you are agendaing, or angleing (no not fishing, at least not for fish).
people are taking the most vast, complicated, viral network imaginable and making it do the exact opposite that's intended. it's all just communication. why would you read someone else's blog or go into a chat room or read and post on a message board if it wasn't for the need to communicate in better ways.
experiment 1: pick up your phone, call a friend. ask that friend for a random friends phone number. call that friend, ask, rinse, repeat. now tell this friend of a friend what your name is, a tiny bit about yourself, the start laying into the person about how you feel political agenda "x" is wrong because it doesn't meet properly with political agenda "z" which you happen to support.
that person will most likely put you on call block and bitch out the friend that gave you their telephone number.
experiment 2: walk up to someone on the street who you don't know. start laying into that person about how inappropriate you think political agenda "y" is just because you think so. said person will either walk away, agree with you (unlikely) or do some physical harm onto you. i would be very tempted to do the last bit but i would probably just walk away from you. well it depends on how much i disagreed with you.
so if it's socially unacceptable to do this in person, why is it socially acceptable to do it online. that's right... it's not. it's not oh kay to do it but people still feel the need to shove their opinions down everyone else's data streams just because it makes them feel empowered. because this media medium empowers everyone.
not just the news caster, not just the actor, not just the director, not just the rapper or the pop singer. it lets everyone have a "voice". and most times someone's going to read it. especially if you target a community, or a blog.
don't get me wrong. it all has it's place. i'm all for freedom of speech. i am against censorship especially on such a personal level. if i go to a website of an organization that i don't agree with, i expect not to agree with them. if i visit a political focused web community, i expect that they will talk politics.
but it's when your in a community of say "fuzzy bunny enthusiasts" (no, i do not frequent such communities, it's for the purpose of randomness) and someone spouts off about how they are against political agenda "4" that leaves my mind a little sore.
so just leave "fuzzy bunny enthusiasts" and find some where else to communicate with fellow fuzzy bunny aficionados right? why should i have to? why can't the ruiners be decent human beings. oh yea, because you don't have to be inherently clever to be on the internet anymore.
and this is seriously, just about everywhere i go. and it's sad.
"so just ignore them" you say "don't lower yourself to their level" you chime. that doesn't help me if that's all there is to do. i would remove myself from the bad situation if there wasn't a glimmer of something i liked going on. i'm selfish, i don't want to give up on the good things because they are surrounded in the bad. like having to eat all your liver to get your pudding.
i know i'm not making much sense at this point. but that may be the whole point. i am taking all my frustration, emotions and ideas and trying not to have an opinion, about opinions.
i have know been trying to catch myself and offer ideas, and options instead of opinions. trying to stimulate conversation as i would do in the real world. i'm not having much success.
there's a bunch more i could rant about. i'm not to happy with the state of the real world at this point either. i've been in a horrible mood. i've been in a gutter of a sleep schedule. may be it's all just amplifying. who needs other people anyway?
enough.
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then appear in your visions.
if you took the opportunity,
you could find such purity.
i am so sick of opinions.
i have been stuck in an addictive cycle. i have been saturating myself with internet society. all i do pretty much is sit in front of this computer. i have very few friends in the city where i live. i have found very few individuals who share my interests and thought patterns who also share my geography.
for the most part, that's fine. i'm not really a zombie to this machine. i bathe, i work, i interact with my wife. i actually get out of the house every once awhile. i make it a point to see the outside world. although when i am released for an outing it's thrilling.
recently however i am sick of being social of the internet.
let me repeat that.
i am fed up, tired of, deathly board of, exchanging thought process with people on the intra-thing.
why?
because all the places i thought of as havens & sanctuaries of free thought, great ideas or at least clubs for people who share an obscure interest, have turned into massive piles of unrestrained, unchecked, political tension. it seems, i finally escaped the acrobatic assaults of dramatics from my real life, by well, essentially becoming a hermit. but now it has all moved to online.
this has nothing to do with anyone i chat with regularly or "im." for the most part however infrequent that is, it's pleasant.
but everywhere else i go it seems all these great e-conversations or pieces of meta-publication, or message boards or news sites, or blogs, or however you want to look at it, it all seems to get ruined by someone's agenda.
we all have an angle. i'm not excluded from this. but lately it's like you have to smear your opinion across someone else's screen like fecal matter to mark your territory. it's all so animal. i'm usually all for being in a lot of ways primal. instincts, raw emotions, pain tolerance rituals. but this is stupid.
and let me be clear, political agenda are wide ranging. i consider religious agendas to be political as well. even agendas i agree with make me feel this way when they are abused to the same extent as ones i don't agree with.
emotions, ideas, thoughts, open minds. simple debate. all these things are fine.
it's when you are passionate about being right, and furthering your cause, no matter who you disrupt, is when i feel you are agendaing, or angleing (no not fishing, at least not for fish).
people are taking the most vast, complicated, viral network imaginable and making it do the exact opposite that's intended. it's all just communication. why would you read someone else's blog or go into a chat room or read and post on a message board if it wasn't for the need to communicate in better ways.
experiment 1: pick up your phone, call a friend. ask that friend for a random friends phone number. call that friend, ask, rinse, repeat. now tell this friend of a friend what your name is, a tiny bit about yourself, the start laying into the person about how you feel political agenda "x" is wrong because it doesn't meet properly with political agenda "z" which you happen to support.
that person will most likely put you on call block and bitch out the friend that gave you their telephone number.
experiment 2: walk up to someone on the street who you don't know. start laying into that person about how inappropriate you think political agenda "y" is just because you think so. said person will either walk away, agree with you (unlikely) or do some physical harm onto you. i would be very tempted to do the last bit but i would probably just walk away from you. well it depends on how much i disagreed with you.
so if it's socially unacceptable to do this in person, why is it socially acceptable to do it online. that's right... it's not. it's not oh kay to do it but people still feel the need to shove their opinions down everyone else's data streams just because it makes them feel empowered. because this media medium empowers everyone.
not just the news caster, not just the actor, not just the director, not just the rapper or the pop singer. it lets everyone have a "voice". and most times someone's going to read it. especially if you target a community, or a blog.
don't get me wrong. it all has it's place. i'm all for freedom of speech. i am against censorship especially on such a personal level. if i go to a website of an organization that i don't agree with, i expect not to agree with them. if i visit a political focused web community, i expect that they will talk politics.
but it's when your in a community of say "fuzzy bunny enthusiasts" (no, i do not frequent such communities, it's for the purpose of randomness) and someone spouts off about how they are against political agenda "4" that leaves my mind a little sore.
so just leave "fuzzy bunny enthusiasts" and find some where else to communicate with fellow fuzzy bunny aficionados right? why should i have to? why can't the ruiners be decent human beings. oh yea, because you don't have to be inherently clever to be on the internet anymore.
and this is seriously, just about everywhere i go. and it's sad.
"so just ignore them" you say "don't lower yourself to their level" you chime. that doesn't help me if that's all there is to do. i would remove myself from the bad situation if there wasn't a glimmer of something i liked going on. i'm selfish, i don't want to give up on the good things because they are surrounded in the bad. like having to eat all your liver to get your pudding.
i know i'm not making much sense at this point. but that may be the whole point. i am taking all my frustration, emotions and ideas and trying not to have an opinion, about opinions.
i have know been trying to catch myself and offer ideas, and options instead of opinions. trying to stimulate conversation as i would do in the real world. i'm not having much success.
there's a bunch more i could rant about. i'm not to happy with the state of the real world at this point either. i've been in a horrible mood. i've been in a gutter of a sleep schedule. may be it's all just amplifying. who needs other people anyway?
enough.
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