Tuesday
I am sorry I didn't get to talk on Friday, I just wasn't in the mood to get online. This weekend, I had alot of things planned, but my plans got screwed and I didn't really do anything....but that is ok right? There is always another time. After school today I have to take my temp test again, I passed once and they expired, then I had to take them again and I failed, so today I will take the test and hopefully pass. We didn't have any school yesterday and on Thursday and Friday we get out of school at 11:20am because we have exams that day. Well I checked my comments, Allison, Rachel, and Tana replied. Allison left a very intersting comment though, I wish to respond. Her comment had some of the following things to say, "Why are you so determined to fight happiness, and any chance at having a stable life?" To answer your question, I believe I have told you this before, I deserve to be this way....for many reasons but I think you know what they are already. Allison said it is frustrating, and I feel bad for making her feel that way, she shouldn't feel that way just because of me. "you WANT and PREFER to be sad and upset and lonely. Why can't you understand that I'm happier when you're here." I know that alot of people are happier when I am here and happy, and I love all of my friends dearly. What about you? How do you prefer to be Allison? "I don't know why I'm wasting my time telling you this, because you won't listen to me anyways...but it'd be nice if you at least tried." I do listen to what my friends have to say, I would never ignore you unless, you are not my friend, but you are Allison, and I always take what you say into consideration, just like you do with me right? Allison, do you always feel lonely or confused or just sometimes my dear? You do not completely blow off what I say right? Who is the other person you are not upset with besides me? I am sorry that your other friends have betrayed you or left you, but that just shows you that they were not your friends at all, which sucks.....I only think about leaving, I am just confused, but I guess you could say if I truly loved all the people I say I do then I wouldn't leave you all.......I am kind of tired today and it is really gloomy.....but I will go because there is really nothing else I prefer to talk about, and I am sure no one else wants to hear, so I will go and talk tomorrow. I hope you all have a lovely rest of the day and pray that I pass my test this time. Sayonara.........