Thinking Out Loud
Why is it everytime I'm away from you, I think that everything is going wrong if you're doing something different from what you were doing before this whole school year started. I'm soo trying to take into account the fact that yes it's school and yes you're balancing a job along with that. But I'm hoping that you're not throwing away your relationships with people as well. I know I'm suppose to try to be patient but I don't know how much more I can take. Missing you....
Maybe it's just me giving up again. Maybe I need more time to get used to it. But part of me doesn't want to get used to this empty feeling when you're not around. I don't know you probably have enough distraction in your life that it doesn't happen for you. But for it it happens more often than it doesn't. This constant missing you. You probably don't feel the same. That's what I'm thinking anyway. I don't know, I want to be proven wrong. Ever since you moved into your apartment for the year, it's been three days we've barely spoken. After you were out of my arms, I lost you again to the world. I'm kind of picturing myself always just waiting here. Standing by the window watching the rain fall waiting for it to finish falling. I mean I cry over thinking of the good times that we had this summer, all the smiles you've brought to my face. I'm super sad that it has ended. I need you, more than ever. But sometimes the school year makes me feel like there is going to be an absense of your presence. That I am going to be forgotten against the work, school, and fun with other people that you're going to have. And knowing that makes me cry as you're girlfriend. Sadly, it's all alone that this is happening. Crying to myself. Maybe i'm just over dramatic. Maybe it's just cause I'm missing you. Maybe it's just cause I want you here with me all the time. I'm trying to sort out what i'm trying to think and I'm kind of going no where. I just keep ending up in the same place. I"m missing you. Missing you really bad. I feel like I'm being horribly forgotten.
I'm sorry I'm feeling that way.
Maybe it's just me giving up again. Maybe I need more time to get used to it. But part of me doesn't want to get used to this empty feeling when you're not around. I don't know you probably have enough distraction in your life that it doesn't happen for you. But for it it happens more often than it doesn't. This constant missing you. You probably don't feel the same. That's what I'm thinking anyway. I don't know, I want to be proven wrong. Ever since you moved into your apartment for the year, it's been three days we've barely spoken. After you were out of my arms, I lost you again to the world. I'm kind of picturing myself always just waiting here. Standing by the window watching the rain fall waiting for it to finish falling. I mean I cry over thinking of the good times that we had this summer, all the smiles you've brought to my face. I'm super sad that it has ended. I need you, more than ever. But sometimes the school year makes me feel like there is going to be an absense of your presence. That I am going to be forgotten against the work, school, and fun with other people that you're going to have. And knowing that makes me cry as you're girlfriend. Sadly, it's all alone that this is happening. Crying to myself. Maybe i'm just over dramatic. Maybe it's just cause I'm missing you. Maybe it's just cause I want you here with me all the time. I'm trying to sort out what i'm trying to think and I'm kind of going no where. I just keep ending up in the same place. I"m missing you. Missing you really bad. I feel like I'm being horribly forgotten.
I'm sorry I'm feeling that way.